+StArAdiSe+ an inborn fairy tale

2007-07-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

i've shifted!
http://onxyempyrean.wordpress.com/
update pleaseeee!

2007-07-01T01:29:00.001+08:00

what i've heard..

self intro (again?!).. reading of chinese passage (wtf for? its not a chinese/cheena company!).. and skin check (my outbreak!! and scars.)

oh man. am screwed.

just a lil thought. is it a wise choice to do THIS and then continue on with my degree?
but then again,
i really dont wish to go aussie alone. T.T

2007-06-28T19:18:00.001+08:00

i got through the first round!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
second round this sunday. oh man am i excited.
was shaking yesterday when i saw the GIANT mailer.
was really upset.
but when i lifted up that mailer...........
i felt like screaming.. with joy.
:D
went up and i kept jumping around my mum with that letter
called mr chan who's on the way to my house.
yess. am very happy.

initially its supposed to be a fantastic day.
got praised by my supervisor... who said i did well for my project on breadstick.
she even said that we can just launch the product immediately! :D
HUR.

BUT. last night i kept puking.
puke and puke.
my gastric was sooooooooooooo painful.
nearly went to the hospital. bryan kept insisting.
he accompanied me the whole night through.
i reallyreally couldnt eat.

morning went to the doctor.
nearly wanted to go for work after that.. luckily i didnt.
slept throughout. from 11 to 6.30. with chan waking me up inbetween to feed me eat and feed me with my medicine.
and hurhur. why im glad i didnt go work?
BECAUSE, I'VE RECOVERED!
whooopeee.
<3
thanks to love for taking care of meeeeeeeeeeeee.
<3

good luck to me on sunday.
even if i cant make through this round... at least i go through the previous round! even though i really thought i screw up that interview!
HUR.
byeeeeeeeeeee.

2007-06-23T01:34:00.000+08:00

Pirates of the Caribbean
Fantastic Four
Ocean's Thirteen
Shrek 3
Surf's Up

to catch in JUNE
transformer

ya. practically, i've caught every single movie already, at cathay/cine

because me and my bong fongk bought a package. 10 + 1 free ticket at the price of 80$.

so we had to watch them allllllllllllll.

shrek 3 is a must catch! cos i like dronky.

surf's up is pretty entertaining too.

fantastic 4. this series is better than the part 1 which was C-R-A-P.

pirates a disappointment.

ocean's 13.. was ok. still the same, you know? those star studded actors acting.

o ok im gone. byeeeeeeeeeee

2007-06-23T01:33:00.001+08:00

oh ya. did i mention that i hate pretentious people and office politics?
but ok la. my office arent that bad.

2007-06-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since I've last blogged (once again).
but am still hopping alive. :D

got my ***************************** interview acceptance letter!
due to my ego and pride and to prevent myself from any embarrassment in case i got rejected after that, i've decided not to reveal whats that.
only FEW, very few will know. hurhur.

actually am very glad because i dont quite expect a letter back from them!
furthermore the manager handsigned that letter :DDD
some japo guy.
hohoho.
wish me luck anyway! the interview is on a sunday. :D

anyway, basically i've been gaming, working my arse off, pigging, sleeping, movies.

yesterday did a survey crap at jurong point. pretty fun. :DDD
100 lucky people get free pizzas! new flavour range omphf with cheeeseeee.
actually wanted to put a hugehuge notice on my blog......... but am too busy.. playing wow.

went for a factory tour with my company's and kfc's rnd/qa and the purchasing team to chng kee's.
the office and factory is neat, clean and beautifully doneup.
the lady boss... she's really fantastic.
lost her dad when she was pretty young and she continued on with the business.
AND
she was the one who got the company branded.
AND
during her time, GUYS DESPISE GIRLS *PHEW*
but she still fought and hang on.
people even insulted her.. and said mean stuff like she slept with her clients and those whatever crap. cos THEY'RE JEALOUS THAT SHE'S SUCCESSFUL.
and this company, the sauces are exported to manymany countries.
and its from a veryvery small company.. added with hard work and everything else.
i really admire her.
and she had 3 kids (5,8,12) i think. if i did not remember wrongly.
and her husband left her (as in passed away) few years back. and they were very loving. =(
i really really admire her.
you know what people, we can do it if we try... really REALLY HARD.
she motivates me. (i hope.)

ok. i need to catch up on my preparation for sunday! and also my naruto!!!
MUST WATCH! THE LATEST. NO MORE FILLERS! NARUTO SHIPPUUDEN!!!!
hohohohohohohohohohohohoh.
BYE!
(wanted to put up some photos............. but. hmm.)

2007-05-28T10:57:00.000+08:00

When I saw the pool of Lipton tea on ‘my’ table (supposingly my colleague Karen’s table), I thought it was my stupid clumsy hand that caused it. But instead, it was the tea itself that has been miraculously escaping out through my Styrofoam cup. Blame it on don’t-know-which-part that has a huge ‘invisible’ hole. Have yet to figure out which part causes the leak. Who cares? Had dumped it into the bin anyway.

Lack of updates. Apologies, especially to those who care. J Been working, playing lan. Oh yea. Did I mention that I am addicted to warhammer. The feel of winning is great. The process? Tough. Especially when you imagine it’s a 2 versus 5. or 2 versus 4. Because my bf is a good player and I had to get stuck with him. But well, I tried to pick up his skills that’s how we managed to win. I played the game his way. Of course, I hate the frustration when we lose (like once?).
But the Saturday that had just past, because ben was around and he turtled to bombard us, we only managed to win 1 out of 3. Damnit. Its really not a fair game.
But yesterday we won. But I really hate that stress process. Voiced out to him anyway. Owell. I am not really in a competitive mood unless the opponents are one themselves or when there’s glory (trophies and stuff)

Ok. Must have bored certain people to tears.
Short updates (without the photos because it is taking way tooooooo long. I WANT MY PHOTOS.)
Have received a sufficient supply of Giotto. In case you’re wondering what the hack is that:

Been raving about it previously, remember?

Yummy. Thanks to my chan who bought 8 rolls for me. Plus the hippos too. Its nice too. But i still love giotto. :D

I know i know candy empire has them but its freaking expensive! and that day when i went with alexius while waiting for quek, the giotto is OOS!!!!

HIPPO:

Got beautiful earrings from him. And this little coal miniature, which I like it. And A little fake flower in a vase from his dad, chosen by him. And Mozart miniature (an alcoholic drink which tasted like Bailey’s YAY!) but amm. Am not drinking =( actually he bought a huge bottle for me but damn the airport had that no over that ???ml up the aircraft. So everybody, remember to put them in the cargo!
Ok. I try to get my photos up.

Oh caught Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End. Not fantastic. Think it’s the worse among all. Caught Spider-Man 3 too. I like. And the Bridge To Terabithia. It’s a twist. I hate the ending. It’s a tragical one. D:

Ok cant think of anything else. Maybe later if I’ve more I will update. Maybe not since Im going store for some testing.

Oh did I mentioned that I love my job? Its fun. :D F-U-N. like last week, went coffee club to eateateat. Very yummy. Bill? High but am not paying! :X Why? To source for new ideas. Give inspiration and stuff. Hoho.
Free pizzas. Etcetc.

And yes. Have rebounded my hair.And….. I really got no idea what else. Too many things that I cant remember. Later.

2007-05-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

im sooooooooooo lost.
ive got two dreams before i enter to a aussie uni after my attachment.

and i cant decide which one to take!!
both has its pros and cons.

if i dont take up this dream NOW, i might not be eligible ANYMORE FOREVER and EVER after i graduate from the university.
but my bf dont like. and its not just that. this job is not very PROFESSIONAL as in its not really a diploma student should take up kind, i think.
my this second dream... im afraid that i will hurt myself!! and money is involved too.
but its my interest!
but i can fulfil it without doing it NOW

the reason i need to reconsider this two dreams?
im so afraid i might change my mind about entering the university because i so love both of my dreams <-------------------------------infinite> this much.

2007-05-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

free facial. by my mum. :D
she used to be a beautician.
glad that she was. from pola.
think they only have the supplies in japan.
but i saw one at century though.

bmw, tiffany & co, sunflower and precious moments jewellerybox.
who can resist?
appreciate it but sorry.

a night out with my friends.
love the spidey web.
one photo to share:
fun.
(not everybody is the the picture)

though im in skirt but its dark and there's nobody else!
(im sure my friends wont peep)
reminds me of sec 2 when we cycle with our uniform.

pizzahut was like some shopping trip at marina sq today.
did some holding test for the mushroom sauce.
its like only every 30 mins we got to get back to the marina sq outlet to measure the mushroom sauce's temperature, taste them etc.
made a new friend today. i mean.. all the while i knew her because she's my colleague.
but had several conversation and i felt comfortable telling her some stuff most people dont know.
:)
because i think she's nice.

2007-05-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

his voice, just makes me smile.
though we've been smsing (like almost everytime?)

because
he's so faraway.. so farrrr.

but his sweet nothings just makes me dance with joy.
wooheeee.

miss my love. :))

2007-05-02T17:54:00.000+08:00

i ammm so bored at work today.. really bored. cos its very difficult for me to surf the net when my supervisor is right behind me (the glasspanel counted?)
cos i am situated at this very bad spot (the only empty spot today).

but when she's not around, im the devil.
hoho.
online shopping!

ya. am addicted to it again.
shopping is a love-hate relationship for me.
imagine that i dont really have alot of money but the stuff online are just so tempting.

purchased 4 tops (one sponsored by mummy. yay!), an an outer wear.
cant wait. hoho.
total only about 80++
so glad.
~$~

o well. i am feeling sick today. hungry yet no appetite.
light headed too.
:(
am going off. bye!

oh ya. am confirm going to phuket. hooray.
in july. end of july in fact. after my bday. :D

2007-05-02T02:43:00.000+08:00

a slack slack lazy tues-DAY (a public holiday to be more precise).
yes. am loving it.
me staring at my dah-ling's lappy the wholedamnday.
right in front of the tv.
lifted up my butt only when there's a need to.
eg. eating, nature's call.

otherwise, its me, the lappy and tv.
oh. i forgot about my ps2. i mean, his.
but owell. its at my house. so technically, its mine.
hoho.
night! its back to work tml.

2007-05-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

first time drove my gfs out. wheee.
love the brownies at coffeeclub, even though to complete the whole plate makes me feel sick.
if only they added two scoop of ice-creams.
love chocolates, alot. but have no idea why that just makes me feel 'jalat' after finishing about 3/4.
nevertheless, its yummydeliciouslyooopfm.
photos. ask mango. she delayed them. X:

her mudpie was yumyum. love that whatever yummysmelllikeperfume tea.
morning glory, is it? i forgot.
but its light and refreshing. really good.

met the guys and more girls joined in later (claud and plyn who were late)
went yishun dam. been such a very long time since i went there.
the last time when i was there, was after my most horrendous breakup ever. yes that period.
am grateful for them trying to bring me out and cheer me up. :D

anyway, sped. haha. speeding kills. yl kept reminding me when i was trying to overtake. haha.
but ahhh. its because its a straight road and not many vehicles. thats why i dare. :D

on the way home (ALONE), got irritated by two ahbengish motorists.
they wanted to get my number =.= (knocked on my carwindow and showed that dumb telephone sign)
i was actually afraid. scared. terrified.
because i just ignored them and went past.
and
they FOLLOWED.
i was sooo scared.
luckily, my house was very near veryvery near to the npp.
i stopped outside there.
they u-turn back.
haha.
arent they childish? followed me all the way from the bedok swimming complex then to simei.
but ok. they did scare me. two guys one girl. 2am++.

2007-05-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

been pondering for very long and i managed to build up my courage, just to keep in touch.
esp if he's somebody who's not exactly a close friend but yet a used to be close friend?.
im going crazy.
really, i love ps2 because it takes things out of my mind...

anyway,
bryan's doing great. that lucky bustard (opps.) was at vienna. on the way to hungary. 8hours of train ride!
will be smsing me later :)
meanwhile, im chewing on the shrimp that he gave me.
i have always reminded him. the shrimp matters more to me than he is to me. :D

2007-04-28T16:45:00.000+08:00

i am sooo addicted to this.
really.
ate finish one packet yesterday (with the help of my dad and sis. about a deduction of 4 balls?)
and i ate finish one packet today! all by myself.
its super duper nice.
no wonder my throat never got ok.
X:
the medical bill was like $30!

argh. i dont want to become round.

yet i ate about 10slices of pizza on wed. of course did several spitting after my 4th slice.
its not disgusting. its my job ok!
bryan saw the spitted pizza on the plate because he came down suntec to fetch me home.. ok more like he stayed over too. hahaha.
and amm of course caught a movie before that.
200 pound beauty.

damndamndamn hilarious can?
makes me want to do some plastic surgery too.
wahahaha.

he's not in sg now. D: but we are still smsing. god.
~$$$~

ahh. realised the way i blog, its pretty random.

ok anyway. yesterday went pizza hut with yl
yes pizzahut
haha
i am not sick of it yet
tried the new thin and crispy pizza.
pretty good except when its cold.
yes. first time trying.
me, being under the RnD department only usually try their new pizzas. those not yet out in the market.
those that are launched. try is try la. but only when they've got some meeting or whatever crap that involves the old pizzas.
or when doing QA checks.
alright, anyway enjoyed catching up with her..
before going home to play my ps2.
hoho.
ciaos.

2007-04-25T13:40:00.000+08:00

ok. actually alot of things happened.
private ones actually.
only one which i will blog maybe later tonight.
sorry previous blog i seemed to be happy. change of emotions. very fast.
argh.
thats me.

2007-04-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

i am still sitting at the office during lunchtime BECAUSE i dont like to grab my lunch on my own, even to take away and bring back to the office. nobody's in the office. my tp intern went out much earlier for her lunch and the people i usually go with are not around! except for one. she's busy but she said we'll leave earlier to go marina sq later so i can grab my mini lunch.
because we will be visiting outlets to try out some pizza flavour.

anyway to those who've been to jurong point, you might have been pulled by some of my RnD collegues to try out their new pizza as a survey. pizza crust stuffed with cheese and there's a cheese dip for you to dip in! =D~~~ launching soon.

ahh. i cant be alone because, im
too dependent on people already. couldnt help it. my ex important ever told me im like a sheep, well taken care of and suddenly being put in the wild. i guess he must be right. oh well. long story on how we came to derive upon that.
but nah. ever ate along few times because of work.

nothing much happened thats why i arent blogging. also plus the fact that i've been out and out and playing ps2. my bryan just bought it so that we can play together. yay! and to accompany me while he's away to europe with his dad. a pity i cant go. damn the attachment. =(

went cheryl's(*doink's cousin) party on saturday. been a pretty good one just that her friends dont dance. she invited DJ to her party. the DJ is really good with RnB. yet her hall is big enough for a dance flour. but a pity her friends are pretty shy except for some.
well, at least me, bryan and his cousins danced abit. to the retro.
i dont like to dance to RnB because i cant dance. not because i dont like.
i am too self conscious. argh.
i miss clubbing. anybody? :D
anyway might want to get that dj for my 21st birthday. all the equipments are provided. the lighting, smoke machine, etc.

*doink/whatever cheesy name is bryan. i just realised, in my blog i only mention about him by his name: bryan. not that i want to give you people goosebumps or what but i think i shall give him petnames from now onwards. havent been sweet to him. like i also never mention about him much. =(

anyway he's going ns on the 14july. one day after my birthday. happy yet sad.
at least he managed to celebrate my birthday w me.
am going to miss him. alot. =(

2007-04-18T01:11:00.000+08:00

to everybody: please do not put too much thoughts into this entry. and please do not assume.

was reading xxx blog and suddenly wondered if things were the same..
been fighting so hard with this battle that caused me much pain
far more than i could take.
proud to say, its in the past.

anyway, i think ive won.
but i cant claim the victory all to myself.

sometimes, i wonder why i'll still dream of such.
its not like its the past.
and its not that ive constantly been thinking of you.

when im in that faraway land,
i feel that its coming. its like a future.
but in reality, i know that its impossible.
because of many factors.
and also, things arent the same anymore.

but still, i wonder why is this happening..
because it just makes not sense.

questions ran through my head, like how are you.
and do i still haunt you, or still a nightmare.
fret not, im doing pretty well.. and im still that usual.
and i really thank you.
cos you really helped me.. though i scream and hit you many times previously.

ipraythatonedaywecanbefriendsagain.

anyway i think i suck.

2007-04-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i went ecp and i like it still.
except for the fact that im not in my most comfy wear.
forgot to mention that im doing great at my attachment area.
the people seemed to be nice and they are bubbly.
its not boring as i get to go down to pizza hut outlet to do some pizzas. :D
love some tasting section whereby i get to stuff myself with cheesessssssssss.
love cheese. really. alot.
bryan ever mentioned that if i were to choose between him or the prawns, i'll take the prawns.
its true.
maybe i'll choose the cheese over him too.
hoho. ok im just kidding.

ok over there i help to do those photocopying jobs and stuff. but i also get to help them with their RnD!
yay!
like it.
am happy if i see them putting my ideas into use. thats means im not giving crap advice.
oh.
anyway, i cant wait for this new pizza to be launched in JULY.
but by then my attachment has ended. i'll still go down to the restaurant to eat the new product.
unless of course i became sick of it.
BUT I DOUBT SO.

anyway,
i only dont like the fact that i got to wear those stuff that i dont like: long skirt, formal, conservative kind.
its not that im wild and all. but now i prefer shorts and short skirts. or just casual.
but well.
even though im only paid like $440.. at least i think i'll learn something at the end.
and hey.
im attached to pizza hut. its a repututable company.
maybe while waiting to go aussie to study, i'll work in such company for a year.
BECAUSE IM NOT READY TO GO ABROAD YET. especially not alone.
you can say im waiting for him to go. but i'll also be more independent..
im pretty attached to my family.. so. ):

2007-04-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

im feeling down, suddenly.
i hate it when it gets dark. and when my surroundings are eerily quiet.

2007-04-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

my hat yai trip.
its pretty boring. especially when its not just with your family... =\ as in with my dad's friend, etc.

our tickets.
rreached there was already night.. ate some supper before going back to the hotel.
and this is our hotel!
our very messy table (above.)
initially when my dad told me we will be staying at Sakura hotel, this was what i first noticed.
i became really sian. i thought we will be staying at some rundown yucky dirty postituded (i know theres no such word) hotel.
was so glad when daddy says no and pointed to another.
chey. got another two word, grand view.
its opposite each other somemore.
though its not very fantastic but its a least a 4star.

our breakfast at this coffeeshop nearby.
i think its very interesting to eat in such old coffeeshop.
after that went to the temple to pray.
i am really 101% not fond of going to the temple. when i was younger, i will faint because of the horrible smoke.
mum and sisters werent fond of going to the temple to... but what to do.
my dad loves it. =\
me being a filial daughter prayed too.
dad asked me to pray with this HUGE jossstick as you can see below:
i didnt dare refuse cos i dont want to disappoint him. when he offered to take a photo of me with it... i had no heart to say no too cos ive been snapping photos of food and crap.
oh well.
im not a very religious person.
mopre like i dont have a religion in the first place. i believe if you're good you will be blessed.
hahaha. i go to church with bryan too you know.
so im a mixed?
what delights me about that temple was...
MUAHAHAH.
and the photo below is taken especially to my mango mama to "so cuteeeeeeeeeeee"
more and more temple visits. ARGH.went to this crystal island.
they really do have crystals. forgot to take photos of it!
but we werent allowed to pluck out from the rocks to bring them home. lol.
saw daddy's chair. yes its really his name. he donated with 3 other of his friends long time ago.
and its not cheap ok.
dont know why he does that.
my dad is weird. X:

on the way to crystal island.
they really looked like WOW that murlok village. haha.

family (:
and more visits. argh.

favourite part of my trip? eating.
love this tom yum soup alot alot. its very good. veryvery.
when i came across ANY tomyum, i will somehow get reminded of this "used to be very close friend of mine"
its because of how he love and hate tomyum.and more food!
the next day actually.
some very really worse than the day before old kind of oldtimes kopitiam.

thanks goodness afternoon after we were being 'blessed' by some monk, we had our shopping!
and whats great about it too was we were shopping as one family!
without my dad's friends. X:
three cheers for fried cheesesticks!
x 2 for stuffed crust seafood pizza at pizzahut!
i was very happy! hohoho.
(sister wanted to take beside that lingurie lady)
at night went to eat at this very unique style of teppanyaki...
they uses lard as the oil.
the soup is very yummy. but mum gave those kind of -.- and 'grrr' and 'you better dont drink if not im going to start nagging' face..
and i decided to stop.
because she said the charcoal ashes are flying in.
=\
next morning had my dimsuM! ohohoho.
and a visit to the market (wet and dry)
is very dirty.
and worse, they had a bitch about my age bitch. together with her mum. argh.
dont wish to mention about them.
anyway,
another shopping mall!
and my swensen icecream:
the brownie was warm and very yummy. :DDDD
sis had topless five and the youngest had one of the towers. dont need to put photos la hor? lazy.
mum's
very unique. some mango flavoured icecream (the cookie and cream icecream was requested.)
its like this thai glutinous rice mango thing.
yes they added pandan glutinous rice.
the taste was ok. initially it was good but after that it tasted abit hmmmmmmmmmmm.
but i love the cream they provided. :D

dinner went to this place:
thats the washing area. haha.
its supposed to be a very famous horfun place. see the queue!
had to wait for quite a while because of the queue..... and i got crazy because of that..
but its worth the wait.back to the hotel lobby. am too tired and had to sleeeep while waiting for that shuttlebus to fetch us to the airport.
yes i was seriously sleeping. youngest took me. got other ugly ones but i put the best.
wahahahaha.
(eg like the thighs too big, the head position looks odd, etcetc)
my awake crazy photos.
my bunny :E
family (:

THE END.

ps.
i love my anna sui

2007-04-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!
i know i've been missed by many. X:
anyway..... not much details of what i have been doing because its been far too long since ive last updated and i am pretty lazy.
but this entry will be bombarded with photos!
anyway, heres a short update.

i went hong kong
i went hat yai
was busy gaming at lan shop (HIGH or I.R.C)
me and bryan's 1 year ((:
been working at Raffles hotel, hotel ren
am with the pizza hut RnD team for my attachment (yay! i think im pretty lucky. the people there are nice. and yes. i got in easily without any interviews - actually there is because quite a few applied but the lady was busy, so ta-da. i got selected because i was given a chance and i put it as my first choice.)
thats all i guess.

here comes the photos!

AT JAAN. a fine dining place at swissotel. that 72/73 storey hotel.
our one year. (: (090307)

OUR APPETISER. we share cos its too expensive. haha.
some crab meat with clam bisque thing.
very good. :D
his main course. some steak.
(they've got very long/complicated names for their food)
MINE.
some grouper (forgot is that the fish.? on second thoughts i think its sea bass.)
very good.
photos.the beautiful view. its 72 or i think 73 storeys high!
MY DESSERT! and his.
total bill came out to be $240++ forgot the exact amount.
but its a very nice place. i like. was treated like some rich girl. wahahaha.

photos again X:
and our outdoor shoots. haha. we're abit not right. X:

hong kong.
(26th march to 30th march)

yes its my virgin trip there. papa nv bring us there and i dont know why despite me going australia several times, going america, blablabalbalablaa. EVERYWHERE BUT HONG KONG.

first day

and got cheated here! (below)
paid like S$10 plus just to sit this 'traditional' heavily lanterned ship/dontknowwhatsthatcalled to tour around the river
back to the tour bus to visit some temple (i forgot the name X:, somewhere up the peak)

peak (: beautiful scenery.on the way to hong kong main island..
at their mtr. yes its not a typo.
had my favourite steamed milk at causewaybay
its the best cafe for steammilk that ive tried in hk.
must really give it a try.
CAUTIOUS: you must love mmmmmmilk because bryan didnt quite like this dessert.

more of causewaybay:
ate at this very good porridge place. (quite ex though but its sponsored. THANKS (: )
my gigantic prawn! (the one that i scooped up) :D~~~~~~~~~~~~~and their special dessert. very good and nice.
back to tsim tsa tsui.
stayed at this hotel in tsim tsa tsui. holiday inn.
beautiful.
its a 5star hotel.

second day
on the way to macau!
my tickets. heeee.
me and my map. X:
ok actually am reading wheres good to eat. :D
me eating my favourite custard bun. a good dim sum restaurant there recommanded by the taxi driver. and its not very expensive!

and actually....
ive got a bunny tooth :E
at this very good japanese restaurant (good ambience and good food) back at tsim tsa tsui.
dinner.

another day! i meant the next day.
at ocean park!

need to take a cablecar to the highland park (where all my rides are!!)
hoho. love that. 20 storeys. took twice!
visited this dumb ocean park aquirium. haha. love this weird fish-snakey-eel. :X
watched the dolphins and seal show
our shirt :D

back to the hotel. had our appetiser/wine/cheeses! :D
its only open to those rich as in its a lounge only few can have access to. feel so rich there (even though im not. haha. alot of caucasians.)
before having our dinner at this yummy place! hong xing.
haha. had our lunch there during our second day too. its good food there.
my crab roe sharkfin!
hurhur. and the tiny whole abalone..
and my prawn!
back to the hotel.

forth day
nu ren jie. lady's market. hurhur
had a yummy la mian lunch at mong kok.not forgetting my daily dosage (at hk) of steamed milk. :D
his milk tea. he had no other dessert that he want. =\
my purchases!
and many more. i didnt take the photos.
and at night. went up the peak! hoho.
they've got a huge EA place there!
very beautiful. tried out their video games. :D on the way up..
:D
was too hungry and settled for this very good restaurant. reminded me of JAAN. haha.
they've got very good service too. :D

saw this 'compressed' bus on the way back to ttt.

fifth day!
ate at this famous shop. yung kee.
my char siew. :O~~~
pig trotter. i see the fats and i go eeeews. but me being a foodie, decided to give it a try since its their signature dish (and its very expensive)
its nice. (:
love their another signature dish better though.
prawns with crab roe.
noticed the tiny crab? i put it into my mouth. hoho.
the nice doubleboiled soup. :D strong taste of mushrooms. HEAVEN.
really love the food. i dont get to enjoy good food everyday in sg due to my limited source of money.
its pretty expensive for all the food i ate for the whole trip. and i meant like near to 100 a pax. sponsored. thanks alot aunty. really fantastic.
at night. avenue of stars!
was too late for the musical show. but caught a glimpse or two of the fireworks. :D
and after that accompanied my idiot to search for this stupid wallet. haha. spent alot of time searching for it. we went around hk from ttt to hong kong mainland, causeway bay, mong kok, jordan. yes serious. from 8pm till 1am.
so he rewarded me with steammilk! and their yummy toast. :D
and most shops were closed. so room service. :D

lastday. my favourite breakfast. dim sum!
the very good birdnest egg tart i always heard on tv. hoho.
but their chee chong fun is not as good as the one i ate in one of the sg restaurant. =\
the sauce in particular.
alright.
GOOD BYE!

ok. yes. bryan cut his hair. because i forced him to! hahaha.
no lah. i prefer his long hair. D:
its the stupid banquet at RH that forced us to cut. grrr.

2007-03-06T02:58:00.000+08:00

2007-03-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

i dont like gossips.
in fact i hated it alot.
because people just bitch about something that they dont understand or dont know.
sick people.
worse, they pretended to be nice to you.

2007-03-01T03:53:00.000+08:00

my attachement: 9April to 30June 07
(:

2007-03-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

met up with my best friend after some time.
a good catching up session. me and her happenings.
gossips.
ate at billy bombers. love billy bombers. (though the burger we ate just now was ammm. too dry. the beef patty i meant.)

another session soon? =D
BECAUSE IM FREE. but she's not really. BUT IM FREE.

anyway where's my quek, claud, cass, blablablablaa.?
IM FREE.
until i get my job. =)
saturday saturday saturday

2007-03-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

i will always get angry, insulted, frustrated, mood-less whenever i got reminded of that incident.
sometimes im not even sure if I've made the right choice to just let us continue on. mistakes are mistakes but i just cant get it off my mind.
i really dont know.

2007-02-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

and yay. we won the tvmobile!
whoopeeee.
free handphone (i think)
thanks to everybody who voted. love you.

2007-02-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

firstly, i would like to bid farewell to my class, AA01.
mp.
poly.
blabla.

and my dear girl in poly, lani.
ok la not exactly goodbye. because we'll meet up, right?
and maybe with the rest too. anybody who misses me. hoho.

have pretty nice friends in poly like karen, su ping, hui ling, etcetc (sorry if i've missed out your names. cant name every single-body out.). too bad aren't very close. =(
my regrets were that i didn't get close to them. partially because of him. but owell. my poly life was enjoyable yet disastrous. fair share.

anyway here's how i celebrated vday:
yay. poster presentation. all the way till 6pm!
with my dear friends.
and many more.
there's this eyeball up there belonging to tat zhun. didnt even noticed.

and here's how i celebrated with my boyfriend.
sakae teppanyaki. its yummy.
and

hurhurhur. finally i get to try haagen dazs fondue. one of my wishlist. =D
if only there's somebody who would REALLY like to go to the chocolate buffet..... must be a REAL hard core chocolate fan.
if not waste money no point. its good enough.

still waiting for boyfriend to send me my cny photos! maybe i'll update more later!
because i'm free. he's mugging. i'm free. he's mugging. i'm free free free.

o. i've tried wow. got that itch to level. =\
my kills. hoho. ok. some are his. but still. i've managed to kill a whole farm of animals. (he said im cruel) and of course some other similar things. but i still suck.
damn. another source of my income must go to wow soon.

and amm. im currently am freelancing something. will update with you guys soon, if its really confirmed.

2007-02-24T06:39:00.000+08:00

updates. a very short one.
maybe tml or what then i'll update a proper one with photos.

once again, i've lost my hp. YET its a christmas gift from bryan.

life is really down for me. things that shouldnt happen, just did. relationship and friendship. and everything else.

i didnt sleep for many days. (2days awake throughout. sleep for 1 hour or less the next then another 2 days without sleeping) FOR ONE AND A HALF WEEK.

my vday was ok. not that great. plus i didnt sleep well. had poster on that day even.

cny was ok too. went lan gaming at night and movies too after my visitings.
i even had to study.

let's see. oh.

AND
i met this bloody asshole. see.
ammm. you can read lani's blog.
lazy to explain what had happened.
not worth mentioning much about him anyway.
just one short reason:
yao wei, lani and i were in the same grp as him. yao wei did not complete his part and we couldnt submit on friday. BUT he gave yao wei 3.4/5 for the peer evaluation but me and lani? 1.7 or something like that. wtf right?
he gave his a 3/5 or 4/5 for the promptness in submitting his work.
i smsed him why.
he didnt reply.
i really suspect he's a gay.
he likes yao wei.
oh he gave me lesser marks than lani.
so did i just proved a point that he is really gay + he likes yao wei?
anyway, i just confronted and scolded him on thursday.
he stumbled. he cant even speak properly. and he tried to slangggg his words. yes, he's trying very hard. he cant even complete his sentences.
ok.
you know what triggered my anger?
he said, "here's your dirty money, bitch"
=.=
what dirty money? unless he meant the money was from him thats why its dirty (as said by bryan).
i supposed so lah, hor?
anyway, fyi,
the money, you know WHY HE GOT TO RETURN THEM BACK TO ME?
i helped OUR GROUP TO GO ALL THE WAY TO IKEA TO BUY SOME BLOODY CANDLES AND NAPKINS. (incentives: chickenwings for myself. err. but using my own money.)
and this is what i got from him.
JUST BECAUSE I SCOLDED HIM previously.
he's also childish too.
he assumed that i am angry with his friends too. just because i dont like him.
he said im pretending to be ok with his friends.
wtf right.
oh and he went around telling people that he got a godmother.
godmother big fuck huh? i also have. its not like some fairy godmother or what, right?

anyway, its ok. i heard he's not well liked. SO. now i understand why.
i should have listened to other people from the start and not to do project with him.
oh well. its over. yay.

2007-02-11T04:33:00.000+08:00

IGNORE THE VOTE WITH THAT STUPID LINE!
not sure why there's that ~~fsdjkfahfksfad~~
i didnt put that command leh.
think i've set it in my template.
but oh well. vote for me! thanks.
i meant. vote for us! =D

2007-02-11T04:30:00.000+08:00

oh ya. amazingly, i passed my tp.
FINALLY.
unexpected.
didnt sleep for 2 fcuking days.
forgot to bring my ic on that day.
and i was amm. 10 mins late.
ok. shouldnt talk more. i've got my logbook to rush.
im really dying.
and my mp poster too.
due on tuesday.
presentation on wednesday.
im screwed.
oh. please vote. vote vote.
thanks!
VOTE!

2007-02-11T04:17:00.000+08:00

http://www.corporate.mediacorp.sg/tvmobile/loveiseverywhere/gallery_vote.htm

HELP ME VOTE HELP ME VOTE!
click on my photo, under most sentimental.
then key in your particulars.
SUBMIT.
thats not all.
backspace again.
submit again until this crap appears:

PLEASE. THANKS.
am already in the top 5 for that category. i need votes to be the top! =D
thanks a million love(s).
on top of that, you might win a prize too!
so vote everyday, its healthy.
thanks everybody.
DONT VOTE FOR OTHERS.. PLEASE. X:

2007-02-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

i really don't know whats right.
im not even sure if i can forget.
i doubt i can ever trust again.
im not even sure if im doing the right thing.
or if the tears are genuine.

2007-02-05T02:29:00.000+08:00

it doesn't help much especially when my mood is being pulled down by everything around me.
I've learnt to shut myself away from other things that's bothering me.
but i cant throw away the fact that I've still got my mp 40page report yet to be completed, my logbook, my PDM mango dessert mockup and preparation for the PDM interview and my csas preparation for the interview.
all on Thursday.
worst, I've got my driving test on Friday. and another report thats due on Friday too.
and now this.
im really feeling very helpless.
if only i can just disappear.

2007-02-05T02:25:00.000+08:00

i can't be as magnanimous as you.
i'm not you.
and i don't want to change.
sometimes, its really hard to forget.
i really am still feeling very hurt.

2007-02-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

im still feeling very very down and lost whenever i think about it.
im not even sure if i can get through it.
not now.

2007-02-04T04:48:00.000+08:00

i really don't know what to do now.

im really down

2007-01-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

i can conclude that 2007 didnt started off very well for me.
some people stole my camera and my haviannas during tp's open house.
arguments with those important to me. (including my boy but we're ok alrdy)
and
i had an argument with mr ex-important recently.
and
im loaded with projects and reports.
i cant find my portfolio (testimonial and olevels certificates are all inside).
im feeling down.
nobody loves me (except for some).
i've got no time to go shopping for cny stuff.
i've got no time to blog.
i've yet to book my driving because i've completely forgotten about it.
ive feeling down and depressed.
i just want everything to end.

ok. tml i'll be going to the security to view the cctv to catch the asshole. i want he/she to be sent to the jail or boys/girls home.
i'll make them go there, provided if i catch them.
i dont care.
they made me so sad. and im really sad.

ok la. at least my family still loves me. and bryan too for accompanying me that time despite having school the next day. love.
still... ):

2007-01-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

All or Nothing. by otown.

Beautiful song.
BUT
makes me feel bad. =\
and sad.

haha. but anyway,

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone who isn't even there?
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all 
or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe its right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing.....

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall it's now or never

Is it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all..
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

At All.


love er hmm. bryan. 
At All...

2007-01-15T03:24:00.000+08:00

I haven't been very happy recently. especially when i feel that I've lost touch with many different aspects in life.
all the changes. and everything else.
not forgetting, STRESS.
but thanks to those who still care for me.
love you. =)

met up with quek and mango on Friday. was ok. not the kind that i can just let my conversation flow w/o the awkwardness.
but was entertained by the guys accompanied though. by their lameness.
and of course yummy food (nophotos.) at this place near katong. Alston.
It's cheap and good.

before that, had my favourite lesson. FSM!
love the apple crumble.
i was horribly late. like an hour. overslept and no money for cab. (everybody owes me money. and i owed my mum too much that i didnt wanna borrow)
the rice was a little too amm. not nice.
but i like the salsa. hot and spicy. good.

a horrible photo of some food to prove that i was damn super hungry:

saturday? i was too busy to go out. sad case. only went out for dinner at 10pm.
then went over to his house for awhile to play ps.
i love sunday better. =)
went to this japo pasta eatery at takashimaya basement.
and my food!
seafood pasta with fish roe cream sauce. =D~~~~

wanted to go find the rooftop of paragon but didnt managed to.
o well.
a little shopping around heeren.
and home for projects. =\

busybusy. bye.

2007-01-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

help me.
i really did consume mold.
oh no.

2007-01-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

it was a bumpy start for me.
so many things had happened since the start of 2007.

me finding life so meaningless. (its actually not)
stress from work, and everything else.
and
i find myself losing touch with everybody and everything.

oh well.
of course there are some who made me feel so so loved.
thanks.
and you few,
should know who you are.
(:
love.

anyway, just a short preview of the happy moments that had happened.
christmas:

and this is how i spent my nye:
with..
with ~~a cute kitty cat. i meant furball. errr.~~ a dog named frost.
a drunkard.
bunch of idiots who cant stop taking videos and photos. (im not included ok! just wanna capture those kaypos. X:)
(ok. im such a bad liar)
he's like a star.
a night to stardom.
its so cool to be drunk.

ok thats all.

anyway,
i love this place.
its actually a lan shop.
beautiful eh? =D

ahh. got to get back to work soon. before that, another few updates before i go mia again,

i've been spending time with

and my little dog below:
=)

of course, not forgetting..
my mp
and more mp.
and more.
ok. like everyday.

im dying. especially after drinking 5 cups of water from a moldy tap TODAY.
gosh.
how blur can i get.

2007-01-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

thanks quek. (:
and of course, you.

2006-12-31T19:10:00.000+08:00

shall skipped all the way to my new year resolution (ignoring my thailand post for the time being) since its about 4plus hours more to 2007.

time really flies. im also not sure if its a good or bad thing.
reflecting back, 2006 was filled with happiness and sorrows and many lessons i've got to force myself to learn.
(in no specific order)

like i lost a friend of mine. i wont say he's very close to me and he's also not like a hi-bye friend. maybe, he was once close to me to a certain extent. whatever it is, he's a very good friend to me who provided me with a listening ear when i needed them.
wonder what he's doing now.
thanks choon yang.

and ya. i got into a new relationship on 9th march 2006.
he taught me and gave me a chance to let go of my past relationship.
he made me love again.
it's definitely a veryvery tough process.
but i know, he's a gem to keep. and i love him so.
i love you bryan.

for friends. i dont know. am closer to some of them now like quek. maybe its because she allowed me to.
but i can feel the distance with most of my other girlfriends. or maybe we werent even close in the first place.
its like i can feel the different individual cliques in us.
its saddening. but.. i dont know.
maybe its troublesome to ask everybody out at the same time.
but
i still hope we'll still be celebrating our birthdays together in 2007.
i love you girls.

my family. no more saturday outings. sisters having tuition.
no more sunday outings to the zoo and all.
i wished to get them all back.
but
we've all grown up.
i'll still try to make the effort for sunday dinner.
and maybe during the public holidays.
because
they're my life. my love. my everything.

so many changes. i hate changes the most.
sometimes i wonder how many more can i still take in any more other changes thats awaiting.
maybe i should look at the bright side.
the changes could be a positive one.
i hope.

my 2007 resolution!

take changes positively.
love everybody who deserved my love.
learn to save my money.
get back my determination.
work hard.
stay happy.
learn to take things easily. like be ignorant of certain things that dont deserve my attention.
on and on.

BYE!

2006-12-30T04:47:00.000+08:00

PART 2

Day 2
sumptuous buffet greeted us in the morning before we set off...
to.. pattaya.
bye bye westin hotel.

yummy breakfast.
beautiful place.
we went off to this river in one of this little thing.
onboard, dad bought some garland for us because he loves us. :D

floating market.
they tried to sell us rubbish on those little.. boats?its interesting but i find the stuffs that they're selling rather redundant. and i think its not very clean. X:

next, we visited this huge sculpture.. i dont know whats that called.
but we gotta pay to enter.
rather beautiful. but.. scary.
see.
youngest sis refused to climb up the second round.
cant blame her actually. my heart was pumping very fast too.
was grabbing on to the walls on my side.
the steps were damn.. steep.
so only me and my second sis dared to climb up again to take a second round of photos.
papa and mama too.

and yay! ive visited the biggest restaurant (THE ROYAL DRAGON) as accordingly to the world records.
http://www.thailandlife.com/worldrecord.html
they even had a certificate of awards somewhere in the restaurant.
see the line above us. they actually delivered the food by attaching themselves to the line and fly across it to deliver the food up that tower!
it's stated on their homepage. (click and see highlighted)
its the first time i've see such a drama way of serving.
but the food is not fantastic.
i wonder why my tourguide mentioned that many rich thai-chinese businessmen love to go there. cos i wont.
maybe just once. to see how drama the place is.

anyway,
ever seen this picture in emails before?
i took the above photo by myself at their zoo.
initially didnt believe it when i saw the email.. but well. i've seen it for myself, live this time.
i had my share of ice-cream too =D
like..
EVERYDAY.
including magnum almond! cos its like sg1.50 over there.
;D
day 1: swensen's
day 2: nestle almond icecream

anyway,
another tiger-dont-eat-meat photo.

visited the crocodile school too.
watched many other animals show. am too lazy to upload the photos.
but the animals are cute. crocodiles and tigers.
sound so wrong.. but ya. they're really cute. X:
see this:

two nights at Caesar hotel.
forget about the toilet. the room isnt nice. =\

fortunately it didn't dampen our mood for shopping!
and my purchases!
BAGS. =D

PART 3

Day 3

fun fun day.that's me!

up in the airrr..and my crazy sister.
youngest one is too scared.
we were attached to a speedingboat and they brought us few rounds around the sea.
i feel like im falling.
a thrilling ride.
:D

setting off to another lil island.
went back to the hotel in..
second sis too
bathed changed cos we were really dirty from the flying. before we set off to the gem gallery!
o. pineapple rice first.
very beautiful place. lots of gem. think the whole place cost a bomb. they even can afford to serve us drinks before and after our tour.
mum bought this unique pair of earrings.
the things arent very cheap but they've got a wide variety of gems. cant find them anywhere else. as in all the gems in one place.
their lounge.
they dont allow photos in the gallery. =(

ah. will continue with another half of day 3.. maybe tomorrow?
BYE!

2006-12-27T04:32:00.000+08:00

(typed this like dont know how many donkey days ago.)
Many things are revolving around my life currently.
before the trip, during my trip and after my trip.
before Christmas, during Christmas and after Christmas.
despite how cheery i might sound in this entry, or i may appear to be,
there are many changes and happenings that's pretty upsetting for me.
i may be even talking to you normally.. but.
anyway. heck about it first.

Christmas.
eve and day were pretty heartwarming. my own and his family gatherings and stuff. received gifts from bf's relatives too.
eve, i also attended Christmas midnight mass with him.
HOWEVER, i couldn't really attend ): because had a very terrible headache. got to sleep at the bench outside the hall.
Day.
late at night after all the family gatherings and stuff, went to his cousin Ben and Cheryl's house to play some boardgames.
pretty fun. but of course, am dead tired.
sorry to mango that i had to miss your celebration, like always. not that i want to. but..
for Christmas eve and day, its really hard to party with friends and stuff. my family and relatives will always have this tradition to gather and celebrate.

my pre-Thailand trip:went partying with my bf and his friends. am acting... amm. retarded in the photo. (:

PART 1

first day
at changi airport.
just me and my cute suitcase and my invisible family.
plane food?
you decide.
plane trip?
definitely sitting beside me is much better.
see my second sis:
she got airsick just because she's WITHOUT ME!
(: (: (:

touchdown.
hello thailand!
whoopeee.
time for shoppinggggggg. wheeeee.

was greeted by that orchid garland..
they gave one to each of us.
and ya.
its given free. take photos for us also free lah.
because they just wanna force sell us the photos.
wah lao.
in thailand. its a must to purchase those photos.
what if they cast blackmagic on us using those photos?
cos they're angry that we never give them their daily bread and jam what.
AND
i really really don't want to see this(below)
on the street, the next time i'm back here for another holiday trip.
ok. im just kidding about the blackmagic and the voodoo doll.

anyway,
ee ling is pleased that the hotel served us some mocktails, as a reward for our generosity for contributing to the maintenance of the hotel.
having sisters with me on this trip can be pretty fun (:
a view outside the lounge.
busy busy thailand.

by the time we checked in..
it's near to evening!
its nightmarket and dinner time :D
a glimpse of thailand street:
o. wait is that a pink taxi?

their night view:
one of the best part during my thailand trip? food!!!!
happy family (:
girls can never go w/o their desserts..
it's swensens! and their cool cup:
not forgetting.. their ice-creamsssss
despite how fat i am currently, i'll never ever give my icecream a miss!
of course, i've got to share them.
with my constant nagging about how you cant get slim that easily anymore after your puberty is over,
my youngest sis was pretty much affected. (hopefully.)
we shared a tower, anyway.

the hotel room is not bad.
cosy warm and welcoming. =D
dont believe,
click for a bigger picture of it:
i love the toilet :D
and us!
alright. will continue with the rest some other time. too many photos. too many things to say.
before i leave, i'll proudly present you... my purchases for day 1!
tat-da-taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
byeeeeee.

2006-12-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm flying off to Thailand the day after.
tomorrow = Friday night.
its very unlikely that I'll have the time to blog...
because i'll be out out out!
so,
since i've time now and have that sudden urge to blog, might as well.
just in case anybody misses me. =D
am a little reluctant to go actually. am not saying whyyyyyy. #^^#
but owell. its been quite awhile since i travel with my family.
last year, i missed the last trip with them. =(
the last time i went overseas with them was like in dec 04 to aussie.
thats like 2 years ago!

made burgers today. was pretty satisfied except for the fact that SOMEBODY was late..
like very.
and we overslept on the bus after collecting our buns on the way back to school.
thats why we could only conduct our sensory at 5.30pm!!!
was planned to do it at 4pm.
anyway! when we conduct our sensory.. most people were already home.
luckily for us. we managed to get 17 panelists. (our coursemates. =D)
SO.
we secretly had to postpone the rest (8 more) to tomorrow.

made something at home today. pretty proud of it. am not telling you.
will let you know soon!
ta-ta.

hello Thailand!
hello tom yum soup.
cheap shopping deals.
beach.

am a little sad now because of something else.
maybe im thinking too much. HELP!

bryan

2006-12-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

since im sort of in a good mood,
let me post another photo of who is holding on to that ability to...

make my day complete.
can bring joy to my life (not to mention, sorrow. OPPS! aiyaaaaa. it's exciting to have ups and downs. X: whats life if its dull.)
and also,
that power to make me a lucky girl..
and on and on and on...

make a guess. (:
love.

2006-12-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

the best part during my fsm lab is... eating. =D

friday always never fail to create a very satisfied ee ling.

of course, being such a glutton, saturday..... pasta fresca at the airport. =D
we were supposed to be studying but we decided to fill our tummy FIRST before settling at coffee bean to mug.
o. we're lucky too. got a complimentary dish from the chef. only our table. wahahahaha. don't know the real reason, but WHO GIVES A SHIT ABOUT IT, its free. X:
lucky lucky.

lazy sunday.
spent my day studying with him too.
watched his dog bath the dog.
looked so different!anyway,
term test is finally over!
so glad.

its mp time.

thats all. BYE!

2006-12-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

i really dont know what to do.
i just feel like screaming and crying. hard.
say goodbye.

2006-12-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

its been a tired and tedious week.
especially yesterday. thanks to those sweethearts who've helped me and yao wei with the sensory, regardless of whether you came to taste my salty (opps. didnt realised that until i've tasted them much later) horrible dish, or help in the preparation (esp karen suping and peiyin who helped me chop the vegs)...
thanks a million.
and those who im not even really talking to kind... even helped me set things up.
really am very touched.
so sorry i cant really remember names. =(
to everybody. thanks!
(i forgot to take a photo for our logbook! too busy. grr.)

dragged from 4pm for sensory.. until 4.20 then 4.30 then 5 then finally 5.30!
nearly die on the spot.
glad one's over.
glad with the evaluation ratings given.
think they most prob give us face only. cos personally, i dont like yesterday's dish the most. X:
thanksthanks
THANKS!

say hello to FROST!
the new adorable... kitty!
awww. mistaken identity. its actually a japanese spitz.
that's all! time for him to go.
ANYWAY. SAD TO SAY.
he's bryan's new pup. =( not mine.
ahhh. here's mine: =D =D =D
ok.. i meant in the future.

tuesday, dine at this italian restaurant at changi.. portaporta.
love the menu.
see how glad i am that my teeth had to turn black? =D
ee ling = italian food

as much as i like those spacey empty clean feel kind of place, i find the interior of this place is pretty not bad.
cosy lah.
still not my type. but for those who like cosy cosy kind of places, its pretty good i guess?
anyway,
they served me with
black pasta too.
squid ink. =DDDDD
(there's not link of the pasta and my black teeth.)

i know. there's this strong attraction between me(white) and black.
Monochrome.

did i mentioned that i love this car (taken on last sunday (3rd dec) at expo bigboyz whatever the crap that expo name exhibition is)?

and that christmas is coming? (ya. just christmas. no other occasion. =X)
(taken on saturday 2nd dec)

went on a christmas tree snapping spree!
ok lah. not really. just happen to see another one at bugis too on sunday.
its made with real diamonds. $.$
so huge the star!
i've told you. star worth quite alot.
diamonds diamonds.
if only wishes can come true when wishing upon it.....

did my product in school lab today:
done by me and my group mates. using an iron. X:
its yummy. but im a lil sick of MANGOES now.
anyway, thats sort of the idea packaging. except that it wont be cartooned.
its cute to some but most, not really lah.
too bubbletea feel alrdy.
we will design our own labels!
product name: chilled mango dessert
shelf life: 1 - 2 weeks.

ok. im typing crap now. actually i dont have the mood to blog cos im sad now.
ah whatever.
i dont feel like thinking.
BYE.

crappy entry.

2006-12-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

ever felt so lousy that you feel that you dont even deserved to be loved?

updates!

2006-12-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

i should be busy w other things instead of changing my blogskin and blogging.
but its a friday!
ee ling needs her rest.

been cranky lately.
and hallucinating (let me explain what had happened and you shall judge if i've used the correct vocab).
i thought the bridge going towards tp busstop is actually moving
i thought its gonna collapse or something.
yes. i even cried.
dumb.
was so scared that i ammm. felt like everything is coming closer towards me.
aiya.
stress la.
dont worry. luckily for me im not alone.
but it could also be the presence that made me this way.
or maybe not.
think not la.
ive got a filthy temper.
stupid dumb ass bitch.

whatever it is, apologies for shouting.

the wholeweek. labcoat allll the way.
mp mp mp and more mp.
the lab, most of the time, there's only me and yao wei.
cos we're hardworking.
but very satisfied with the efforts.
14 trials in total!

and finally my mac and cheese is a success!
i know la.
where got mac and cheese look like that one?!?!?!

i got try this real mac and cheese trial.
but then ah. people say too cheesy dont like.
and i thought mac and cheese supposed to be cheesy.
(of course there's few who like it.)

yw said tasted like mac w melted cheddar.
of course it is lah. with some other secret (im not telling you) ingredients.
so its boring.
lol. im a cheese-fan.
so i dont know anything about it.

no choice. gotta alter to suit everybody's preference.
and so glad. its 100% say can sell!

our other products:
more and more.
but ee ling is lazy.

random random!
another something, err. i meant somebody who can make me smile on a bad day apart from that softtoy stitch

if im in a good mood. maybe, when im free AGAIN, i'll show you who/what/which/when else have the ability to make my day purrrfect. =)

farewell to you.

2006-12-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

you've served me well.

2006-11-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

i might be mia again for a while. its only when im really sad and the suitable candidate isnt around to hear me out, then i'll blog. unless its really personal.
im very stress.
grrr.
thanks to those who showered me with concerns. =D *hugs*

2006-11-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

(click on the photos if its too small!)

i shouldnt even be blogging right now.
but heck. just gonna squeeze some time out, just in case, somebody/anybody did miss my presence.
=D
i know whoever who visit my blog frequently do! rightright?

friday, met up with mango to get my perfume. thanks for helping me. had dinner with her and her friend yu quan too. wanted to drive them around on friday but i failed. =(

1 immediate (took more than 5 mins to park) and 8 points from correction for parking.
damn wasted can?
my practice and warm up usually parking is a no problem. is only road.
BUT
dont know what the hell happened.
4 points from the road.
very sad. veryvery.
cos overall if my parking like the usual is ok, i only get 4 points. =(
im lousy too lah. that stupid tester dont know why keep talking to me. and i cant concentrate when somebody ask me questions when im driving. lousy driver. X:

i even said my car number when the tester asked me for my name.
then he started disturbing me by asking me my ic number etcetc.
how blur can i get.
lani and my mum laughed like nobody's business when i told them about my name = 199.
thanks bryan for being there for me. =)

saturday, i dont remember what i did. i only know that friday wasnt very pleasant (the late at night part), so saturday.. hmm. still! did managed to go plaza singapura with him! just to eat my favourite chicken with rice.. at that indonesian riverside foodstall!
its damn yummy. i've got that craving for one whole week.
we really did just go there to eat. BECAUSE WE REACHED there AT 9PM AND THEN AFTER EATING ITS ALREADY 10PM.
walked to cineleisure after that because only cine will still be lively.

sunday, happy birthday sister!
kuishinbo! =D
wanted to go goodwoodpark hotel to have their international buffet (heard its pretty good?) but mum's sick of international buffet and wanted to try something new. o ya. i forgot to cancel the reservation.. but the person didnt call me anyway. X:

ok. i really got to start with my logbook soon.
just a few updates to those who dont know what's going on in my life. or what the heck im doing right now.

been busy in this lab with yao wei, doing our major project:

sensory lab for adfs. its pretty fun. =D
we're supposed to open the breadbox. then put in the samples (see left) and close them for the person opposite (sitting at the another side of the bread box which is also the another room) to test the differences of the 3 different yogurt and their preferences.

anyway, im busy with..

lectures too.
(whaos. we were early. i forgot why but i think we did have some lab before that.)

of course i fell sick.

and recently, this lab on friday, 24 november 2006.
me and my darling marketing partner.

hee. thai box. so proud of my idea. X: but of course karen and sze hui did helped me find the information for the thai food and also help select the photos. :)

see the completed version! so happy and proud of the design. =D
spent like few hours completing it. grr. of course will be longer if i got to find the information on my own.

this lab is pretty fun. we're supposed to like have this restaurant and invite lecturers to come over and eat at our lil restaurant.
the invitation, decoration and marketing goes to the marketing team which is my team.

then there's manager, assist managers, cook, cook I, cook II, baker, potwasher, waiters and waitresses, etcetc.
together, we're to make sure our business run smoothly.
and it did. =D
PHOTOS!
our set lunch. see the menu below to guidance.

and i love this the most! red rugby dessert! damn nice!

anyway, im so stress that yesterday (saturday) i didnt really go out! =(
just went parkway with bryan (he came over to find me after his presentation in the morning),
then i went coldstorage to check out for the ingredients.
then lunch.
then church.
then project.
=(

so stress that i breakdown several times last week.
apologises to those i've vent my anger on.

anyway, a small note:
i love this!makes me happy! =D
i mean there's other people/things/etcetc that will cheer me up too.

ok. its 7pm! back to my logbook!

2006-11-16T02:48:00.000+08:00

nobody's really there anymore.

2006-11-16T02:42:00.000+08:00

replaced.
distanced.
that consistent dying of importance.
fear.
fulfilled

changed.

2006-11-15T03:35:00.000+08:00

im not sure if this semester is really that packed or is it just me.
but its definitely not that horrible for me to breakdown.
but i did.
whatever lah k.
too overwhelmed with emotions i think. i hate my this emotional side of me.
tears can just flow just like that.
cry what fuck.
i'll just scream at my lovelies when they aggitate me a lil.
i need somebody to let me scream at or soak their tshirt 24/7.
because i'll never know when i'll need it.
whatever.
am on the verge of giving up.
but whats the use when ive came such a long way.
maybe, if my hard work didnt pay off,
i'll do something about it.
postively, negatively.

anyway, hello somebody,
thanks for letting me vent out my stress just now, virtually. it did helped me.
and bryan too, for trying to cheer me up just now (few hours back) while i complained, though i've got no idea where are you now, asleep or playing your guitar.
and blogger.com too.
tired. dead.
stupid life.

2006-11-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

after several of attempts of trying to get my chocolate to model for my blog,

because i'm strong, chocolate is soon under my control.
(:

why did i abandon my 6111?
reason #1: i love chocolates.
reason #2:

reason #3: ~~my 6111 dumped me. yes, i was dumped.~~ errr. i meant, i was so sick of it that i had to dump it.
afterall,
im a player. (kidding)

so sad, but true.
after half a year (ya. i just realised its exactly half a year that 6111 left me for another owner; who apparently will never be able to operate my phone because i've set some secret pin. might as well you just bloody return it to me, you dumb piece of shit. NOBODY will be able to crack it BUT me. you hear that?! i've decided to leave 6111 for chocolate.)

my santa is a month plus earlier.
love chocolate. and my santa.

2006-11-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

im at the edge of a cliff.
nobody drove me there, but me.

nothing, is what i want.

2006-11-04T02:19:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine just asked me this,
"how would i describe colours like red and blue to somebody who totally cant see."
alright, in short - blind.

i know this is probably some %$%$^% entry. but when he told me my answers were quite right,
i have this sudden urge to blog.

oh. anyway, my answer was:
blue: warm color
red: dark.. and the same time bright. represents love and death

but can a blind even picture it?
maybe they can feel.
but do they even know whats warm like?

for your info,
i was so close to entering the abyss when i was still a baby.
thinking back, im not sure if its supposed to be a blessing or pain in disguise.

you see,
if i was born blind, i'll picture my life to be colourful.
provided i even know how colours even looked like.

my life's pretty perfect.
parents who dote on me.
thats supposed to be enough, right?
at least i really feel loved.
no hardship. no pain.
i'm probably trying to escape from reality.
but who dont?

but well. if i suddenly gone blind now, thats really fuck up.

2006-11-03T20:14:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be a bloody long boring entry.
but i'll still go on about it, just in case anybody is interested to know. i mean yeah, you'll never know. X:
since i stopped on thursday,
so, just let me continue on with friday and the rest of the days followin after that. X:

alright, practically weekdays i'll usually meet up with bryan for dinner before he'll go do this raiding(some WOW thing).
im not complaining, because i can go home for my tvvvvvv.

saturday (28th oct), met up with yl.
walked around orchard. shopshopshop.
tell you something.
i love that fareast basement calamari!
its greatttt. =D

ok. went bugis after that. wanted to buy my jewels. bought the wrong one! (realised it after im homee)
went town.
wanted to go chicago's steakhouse.
changed our mind.
hong kong cafe for us.
bryan didnt really enjoy his maggi mee with luncheon meat and egg. (i would have ordered that if not for that egg!)
i enjoyed my baked pork chop pasta.
the mango ice thing isnt fantastic.
tasted like ice kachang! not worth our money!
(to yuet ling: gross. mangoes. yucks. what can you expect from any mango related desserts, right? muahaha.)

sunday. family dinner.
enjoyed my family dinner, like always.
hahaha. nice food. yummy food.
regardless if its some restaurant or hawker centre or home.
like the week before last when my dad werent around,
thanks mummy!
heehee.
last week?
some shanghainaese restaurant. damn nice! chilli crab. its different! the taste is really XD
my dad, who dont fancy crab, took us there because he said it was delicious.
so ya, its really THAT GREAT.
they've other nice special food (at least to me because i've never really tasted any food from shanghai)
had prawns =D
crabs.
some noodles (see photo?)
some fried rice
some pork ribs
and some veg.
i love all of them.
different from those long beach seafood restaurant that kind.
but the cost is a lil pricey.
and its pretty salty.
salty = waste my water bill!

then this sunday (i meant that sunday, that 29th oct sunday)
went to changi hawker.
me and my second sis had cockles, sambal squid, sambal kang kong, fried oyster, fried carrot cake.
X:

ammm. anyway, not sure if i've gotten a lil rounder. i weigh myself am still the same... but its kinda impossible.

anyway, why i love family dinner is also...
maybe, its also because im with my family. (:
love them. alot alot.

monday, my mp.
before that its mac breakfast! =D
sooo sooo long never had any breakfast there alrdy.
cookcookcook.
pretty fun ah my major project.

anyway. this semester, im taking:

food service management
advanced food science
product development and marketing
major project

everything, yes i meant everything, my wet lab will involve cooking.

the ones in purple will be a slight description to whatever i'll be doing in school.

fsm:
had my first lab today (3rd november).
every lab session, there'll be a grp in charge of managing the lab (we're supposed to imagine that the lab is our restaurant.)
invite lecturers to dine at our restaurant.
earn money BECAUSE they'll have to pay to eat (hopefully but i doubt so. i arent even sure where will our money goes to.)
etcetc.
my group: me, yao, bong, rocelle, kai sheng.
me? a cook! i wanted to be one. muahahaha
and bong too.
yao got the assist manager BECAUSE he wanted to SLACK.
rocelle an assist manager too because kai sheng asked her to.
oh. kai sheng is our manager because his catering technology got the highest score.
hopefully, our lab will be fun.
we're supposed to whip out a menu and 'hire' people to help us manage the restaurant too.
pretty lame. X:
got like DISHWASHER (yes. wash our dirty pots and pans, plates etcetc)
waiter,
cook I, cook II, cook III etcetc.
baker,
blablabloabalbalabala.

adfs:
had my first lab on tuesday (31st oct)
supposed to do some sensory evaluation for this lab for every grp's product.
my grp's supposed to come out with a new product with our own claims.
our grp was selected accordingly to register number. and im doing it with the year 2s. so cant remember what's their name.
of course i know who they are lah.
whatever it is,
at least my class got few year 3s like yao and victor (i think he's in my class. didnt see him though cos he was late for the lab)
my grp is doing cheesecake!
our health claim:
low in sugar and reduce calories! :D

pdm:
mango sago.
had our lab alrdy yesterday (thursday, 2th november)
need improvement.
my grp: me (like duh), jasmine, finy, raniah, ying ting, wan jun.
we can work with each other pretty well.
oh god. im the grp leader. =\

mp:
to prepare 5 different recipes for 3 categories.
think i've mentioned how its like alrdy.
so am lazy to go on.

tuesday went back to bugis to buy the correct jewel.
caught a movie: the guardian.
pretty nice though i dozed off at some point of time.
too tired.
really am very tired. ):

thursday,
went cheesecake cafe. =D
before that, met up with yuet ling at tanah merah first.
went thai express. =D
i love thai express.
think its the best thai food that i've eaten IN SINGAPORE so far.
i remembered that takashimaya food court, think its lerk thai, their tom yum sucks.
im not the only one who commented that it sucks too.
anyway, cheesecake cafe with claud and pearlyn too.
had strawberry cheesecake.
=D
anyway, the cafe have other cakes too. like tiramisu and choco banana (i used that to make quek go too, the next time when i wanna go again.)

anyway, few photos of my mp food.
i know its not really presentable, NOT YET.
test out only ma.
so far only one was approved.
not bad already le. my other grp member is only yao la.
so 2 doing one mp.
god.

my approved (by us.) beef burger.
on 1st november 2006. whoopee.
it's jalapeno bluecheese burger.
but think it should be:
greenchilli par-mozerella cheese burger.
(left out that green chilli on that day though)
BEFORE this success, our failed burger.
VERYVERYVERY SALTY.
i made this dumb mistake which was emphasized over and over again by my teammate. thanks ah. i dont really wanna say. because think almost every lab i'll do ridiculous things which will be mocked by my helpful teammate in the end.
anyway, its so salty that
even he couldnt accept the saltiness.
yao wei drinks light soya sauce (ok, almost.)
so how can i accept this beef patty!!!
my tongue is not that salty.
(ok. what the heck am i talking about?)
tat zhun's grp was not salty. (anyway, their grp is the same as ours. just that we do research seperately lah. so the beef patty is definitely different)
he amm. sort of helped us finish it by eating a mouthful of his and came over to our table to eat a mouthfull of ours.
anyway,
we did this failed patty on our second mp day. i modified it to perfection on the third mp day which was just this wednesday. =D
next,
our failed meat loaf. did it on the second mp day too.
too bland. wahahaha.
i know lah. its not presentable. we arent gonna sell it that way anyway.
ok. let me show you our APPROVED burger once again. =D
and the next failed meat loaf.
near to approved lah ok?
and its not done by me anyway. X:
need to make it less moist on the inside.
and smaller portion.
and we're so not selling it in that way.
we're gonna slice it into nice meat squares. =)

i know looks like shit. but wait till you see the finished product!
muahahaha.

alright. back to my project.
and yay! wonbin's on tv later!
11pm. muahahaha.

okok. i started blogging at 8pm. in between did some research for my mp.
then my 9pm show. =D
fiona xie can go and die! =X

so.. its like 10.30 now.
i blogged for 2.5hours!!!
BYE.

2006-10-31T01:18:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
life gets so confusing and numb that im totally arent sure of what's really going on, who i really love and miss. (please. love and miss is not always to be expressed to that bgr category.)
perhaps,
im too sick and tired of almost everything.
i would very much prefer to use the word almost,
reason being: i'm still 19 going on 20. how is it possible for me to experience every single thing? be it horror or the beauty of life.
i'll admit that i very much wished that my life will just have a big fat dot: .,
indicating that everything's over.
relieved, i'll say.
but i know, ee ling will be nothing, but just a sore loser to give up just like that.
and all these are just assumptions, right?
because who knows,
what'll be lining up for us in that future,?
when our life is so called 'ended', as concluded by the livings.

2006-10-30T01:05:00.000+08:00

i think my parents missed that young ee ling they once had.
i miss those times too.
i just wished to turn back time.. shopping with my family.
and also,
especially those tours that we had - aussie, usa, etcetc.
even those several frequent simple drive to malaysia.

sorry. just feeling a lil upset that, those time spent.. will only remain as memories.

everybody changed.
hate changes.
hate it.

soo looking foward to my family holiday in december.
probably thailand. hopefully hong kong. (am pleading to go there! mum's looking after that lil baby.. so cant take too many days off. she said 3D2N in hk will not be enjoyable. sad. but still.. im not giving up!)
nowhere far. because, the excess cash will be for my university education in australia.
my family's not bombarded with ke-ching in case you're wondering.

well.
at least dad still love us alot to bring us overseas this december.
love my dad and my mum and my sisters.

2006-10-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

school's ok.
major project. need to be a lil more organised.
but owell. its manageable.

projects for other subjects.
been appointed a leader for this group for FDM.
my leadership quality (do i even have one? apart from me joining peerleader and other committee shits in secondary school) went down.
i just dont feel very comfortable.
but at least we'll be 'creating' this asian dessert (yes, that's our damn theme) - mango sago.
was praying hard its not cheng teng. muahaha.
cos it sounded sooo boring.
i badly wanted mango pudding but due to time constrain, its a lil too impossible.
and i hope my group members are fun to work with.

adfs. omg. total complete strangers.
have yet to attend the lab. but heard its grouped accordingly to your register number.
o god. hate this.
maybe im not very friendly. i dont know.
lecture? i slept.
luckily we were sitting right at the corner of the lecture hall.
and no. i dont really see any of my batch repeating.
think its only me yao and victor?
but victor is like at the another side of the lecture hall.
well, at least i've got company.

i want to do well for my semester.
i've got many dreams.
i'm thinking very hard on how to fulfil every single one of them.
yes. its very hard till i get sooooo grouchy.
bad mood.

2006-10-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

i dont know where to start or stop. how did it even begin?

STICK WITH YOU

2006-10-24T04:42:00.000+08:00

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody's going to love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

Nobody's going to love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

2006-10-24T04:28:00.000+08:00

2006-10-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

sentosa.
lazy to upload every single photos.
just a few.

the photo below. is this nice hotel(siloso beach resort) with a private jacuzzi. we stayed there!
it's like a two storey room with a PRIVATE staircase leading to the jacuzzi.
okok.
alright. actually no. we were strolling around before going for our tan.. so happen that there's this nice worker who let us in and view that nice hotel room.
ours:

dumb thing happened. this typical ee ling.
i thought i lost my phone.
ah. lazy to go into details.
enjoyed myself. especially day 2.
day 1 bbq was started late! growls.
like 12 midnight?!
damn freaking tired.
day 2 though the sun is not as hot, at least ok la.
and
the lil island bryan built.
pizzas. ben and jerry's. :D
i love night.
yummy buffet at rasa.
worth my $46.

i wanna go sentosa again!!!

anyway, saturday was the celebration of sarah's birthday.
tepanyakkiiiii. and her potato salad. :DDD

today, major project.
met up with yao.
print print.
supermarket.
coook.
failed.
only one... we'll probably accept that recipe.

i anyhow add this add that.
turned out to be the accepted one.
im good or what?
never follow any recipe.
muahaha.
just need a lil of sauce. and of course to be presented on a plate and stuff.
but iya. just testing so its like, doesnt really matter.
actually the mocha chicken(taken from recipe) is pretty good.
just that halal = no sherry wine.
sad case.
till then.

i really love you.

2006-10-24T02:31:00.000+08:00

so many things happened over the past few days. happy and sad.
i dont know where to begin.
perhaps, i'll start off by saying sorry to my love.
hey.
sorry
for being a bitch.
for hurting you.
for every bad things i've done.
though i was forgiven by you, i'll never be able to forgive myself.
anyway,
i love you.
i wont bury myself in my phobia. i'll try.
thanks for loving me.
for forgiving me.

i love you.

suddenly, i realised i've never said i love you to him before. as in confess them in my blog.
and i hope he did managed to read my this entry. because i really dont wish to hurt him anymore.
o well.
i seriously suck.
i should just disappear.
i dont deserve to be loved.
never mind about it.

suddenly i feel lousy.
i wanna erase that part of his memory.
ah. i should have seen it coming.
what's most hurting is that i've hurt him.

maybe i'll go and take a bath.
perhaps i'll have the mood to blog all the happy happy things that had happened after that; in contrast to this sad entry.
whatever.
bryan, i love you.
and thanks.

2006-10-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

been feeling very lethargic.
hospital trips on tues and wed, with hopes that you'll wake up.
thursday, you left us.
never am i gonna see you waving from a distance.
that voice shrieking "ah ling ahh."
the wide open arms action indicating that you want a hug.
your gayness.

i was looking through your photos taken from my digi cam that very night,
miguel agreed that you took too many silly photos for us to remember you.
friday, i realised, maybe you're happier. you seemed peaceful.
maybe it's better that they let you go.
god sent you down to touch our lives.
to let me/him/her/everybody know such a great friend do exist.
you're like a sacrifice.
to remind us: please cherish your loved ones.
and.
maybe god wants you back.
to stop you from living in reality.
because reality, is painful.
heaven's wonderful, right?

dont really have much photos of us.. all was taken with the rest too.. but anyway:
(ya. not sure who suggested to have this kind of shots taken. lol. so kid. yang's one of the slippered foot. and the extra foot was yao. =.=||| im the only girl's foot.)

sorry i did not send you off on saturday.
despite your best friend's effort on trying to find out the place of incineration etcetc.
i was even thank(ed) by him for trying. ):
i'll miss you my friend.
thanks for your company.
thanks for helping.
thanks for everything that you've done.
thanks for the beautiful memories.
my dear yang (1987-2006), rest in peace.
i'll always remember you.

anyway, im feeling pretty heavy hearted.
i dont really know the real cause.
but what i know, i feel that im going through another revolution of change.
this is scary. and i arent sure when it will end.
sorry to whoever i've given attitude to during these few days.
esp to bryan. im sorry about last night. i enjoyed our date yesterday. it's been awhile since we've really gone out.
sorry for neglecting you.
anyway
was at vivo with yl on friday.
the deck.
so beautiful.
i felt so happy and carefree the moment i got up there.
and
at least i realised im not alone...

2006-10-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

The ICU ward is scary. Tears, whispers. Many kept asking him to wake up. They touched him, hoping that he can feel. 19 is just way too young.
Later, his sis will message me about the outcome; their decisions. Unless, he wakes up.

As long as the machine is still helping him to take in his every breath, I’ll still pray for him. Everybody will, too.

I can hear his voice. And the way he call me “ah ling ahh”
Also, his weird, funny and sometimes pretty gayish kind of actions.
My bubbly friend.

Maybe he’s happier now. Maybe he’s up there deciding to return or not.

As long as the machine is still helping him to take in his every breath, he still got a chance.

Maybe he’s feeling very lost. Or maybe he’s too nice that god wants him back.
Wondering, Is he reluctant to return back to reality?
Of course, most people would rather stay in their sweet dreams. Well, as least I do. But that’s not a very nice thing to do too.

Heard from his mum telling to his relatives (the guys eavesdrop on the conversation), he fulfilled his wish to have his since 1987 curly hair straight. Was really curly. And now its rebonded.
I supposed he wanted to look good at the start of the new semester. And I hope he still can.

As long as the machine is still helping him take in his every breath, there’s still hope.

Hello yang? Can you hear us? I want you to share w us how you fought for your life. How you managed to survive this critical moment. Yes, in your t-shirt, jeans and slippers.

Everybody seems to be disappearing.
If I were to be gone one day, I want to be dressed in a very beautiful gown, lying in a glass or maybe, a white coffin will do. Not sure if its expensive, but if ya, just a normal coffin will do.
And I want all my blog entries to be printed out, so that I can bring back all my memories with me, to where I’ve come from.
Sorry. But seeing people disappearing makes me think a lot. I hate this pessimistic me. Was I ever like that before I enter poly? Argh. Changes.
And yes, one last thing, I love whoever who loves me.

2006-10-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

why is everybody disappearing?

2006-10-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

Brain Aneurysms

Q: Recently, our friends lost their son due to an unexpected death from a popped blood vessel inside the brain.

How can this be avoided? Should a doctor do an intensive search to check on this unpredictable situation that can happen to anyone in seemingly good health? Is a body scan or X-ray the proper checkup?

A: In autopsies, about 3% to 4% of the population have aneurysms, or weaknesses, in a blood vessel in the brain. Most of the time they don't burst or cause problems; there are about 30,000 cases a year of bleeding. People usually have no symptoms at all until they bleed, at which time they may complain of an excruciating headache or just lose consciousness.

I still remember one of my best friends, Susie, who left school one afternoon in 7th grade because she had a bad headache. She lay down to rest and died in her bed that night.

If an aneurysm is suspected, a magnetic resonance angiogram (MRA) of the brain can be done. As unpredictable and deadly as this condition is (about 50% of people will die), it doesn't make sense to scan everyone's brain.

2006-10-11T02:18:00.000+08:00

i've got mixed feelings.
im not even sure what i want.
i ever loathe my life soo much that i wanna just vanish from every single one of you.
but i'll be wasting some people effort.
like bringing me up, being there for me, listening to me complain, loving me.

when i see this lifeless friend barely even fighting for his life,
this scenerio, makes me felt so scared.
very very scared.
my heart's like so heavy that i couldnt control just now during my dinner at tm.
i just breakdown.

i can still feel that sunken feeling deep inside me.
i hate it.
because i'll probably be thinking of alot of rubbish this few days.
and giving people attitude.
i'll try not to cos i should learn to cherish all my precious.
reason being, i love all of you.

i still wanna feel the beautiful melody my life will compose in time to come.
at the same time, im too afraid to see another somebody, anybody disappearing from me. or me going back to that horrible state.
though i am currently in this not so nice state, at least im stable.
life's a gamble.

ps: i love you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you....................... on and on and on

2006-10-11T01:53:00.000+08:00

life's so unpredictable.
one moment you can be fine but the next, you didnt even realised you've fallen back to where you started off from.
i pray that you'll be fine.
miracle still do exist, right?
at least your life can still be aided.

even if it's not by your own effort,
technically, you're still breathing.

we may not be close.
but i'll always remember the support you've given me.
your help when i was having troubles with yao,
and you being our messenger (in a way).

your presence. a very lively one indeed.
even my mum said that you are(yes, your heart's still pumping so no past tense) damn friendly.
i still wanna go your house play LOTR.
i've yet to complete it!
i miss you.
the happy happy smiling guy.

you've not used the lubricant yao gave you (i think so lah. expiry 2007).
you were supposed to catch a movie w miguel and co.
im supposed to see you during lectures when semester start.
the last conversation, i told you one of my ambition that i dreamt to be.
i even told you how confused i am.. about when to start my uni life.

i wanna see you jumping around, gaying with yao wei the next week.
touching his this and that.
though its disturbingly amm.. disgusting?
at least its prettty entertaining.

i hope your brain is just resting, for a moment.
i'll pray for a miracle.

2006-10-10T09:50:00.000+08:00

i dont care if this bitch A****** will see this entry. maybe and maybe not. but probably maybe happen to come here la. but whatever. i hope she does.
i asked what happened to him she never say. Zzz.
What the fuck la. I asked if he’s ok? She bloody never reply.
She just ask for Y’s number.
Then just say its related to my that another friend C when i asked why.

And given that Y, his phone is always separated from him, I could have called his house or something.
Didn’t think that its so bloody that urgent..
C, he's apparently Y's closer friend, is in ICU.
though i dont really know him well.. the moment i heard of the news, my heart just sank.
we only did hang out for one period of time cos of Y.
and C is quite a good friend. i know it.

Fuck her la. Never say thank you when I replied her saying that I informed Y already.
Never even bloody reply when I asked what happen to C.
ANGRY.
I never like her anyway.
Bloody A******

2006-10-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

finally. 9 October 2006!
GONG!
my princess hours is showing on channel U.
no money to buy dvd.. what to do.
and quek say wanna lend me after my sup but never!!
HELLO QUEK. and yay. i 've got a good news for you...
ok la. not really. X:

starring:
o my heartthrob. :D~~~~
i tried searching for yahoo. got one ugly pic of his (not even sure if its him) and nothing else.
he's not famous yet!
unlike my won bin:
my since sec 1 :D

why korean guys so handsome. unlike sg actors. opps.
some good looking la. but korean like almost all! even those small eyed ones.
(i've this thing for those big or at least of a standard size eye.. double eyelid.. muahaha.)
i got my hyun bin too. iya. go my previous blog entry to recap who they are.
got all(almost) my beau. :D
28 august entry. wahaha.
i mean my korean guys la. i have yet to include my edison. X:

the girls are very pretty too. like my song hye kyo.
but they really all go for plastic surgery meh? why so lucky everybody plastic until so nice?
i wanna do that too.

and why my heartthrob is not the main character! arggh. then first episode only see him like for a very damn short while. keep seeing that arrogant prince..
i dont care la. in the show he's damn fucking stuckup. i dont like.
yet not very handsome. worse!!!!
handsome also see until very irritating. like got one period for that my lovely samsoon i dont like hyun bin. cos he hurt my cute lil samsoon. X:

iya. anyway i recorded it down. :D thanks to my sis and also! daddy for buying that recordable dvd player. hohoho.
ok la. not for that purpose.. but at least i dont need to rush home to catch that show!!
i can like exercise... X:
which i did it today. jogged from simei to tamp w bryan.
my stamina drop lah.
so ashamed to say how i fare.
never mind la. train. i wanna go for a dip. swimming can build up my stamina.
i wanna lose weight!

but after that. bubble tea and hor fun. how to lose weight.
tomorrow confirm eat that chocolate cake lo.
and that marriot mooncake is still waiting for me to savour.
and then tomorrow lunch later i hungry confirm eat oily food lo.
and office sian i'll snack.
and and and.

never mind. JOG.

2006-10-09T02:34:00.000+08:00

technically, im supposed to be snoring right at this moment.
however, due to that itch to blog, i've decided to put that on hold; well, hopefully not for too long.

today's my dad's birthday.
happy birthday to my beloved dad. :D
(yes. that's me wearing my kind-of-new specs. nerdnerdnerd. love it. nerdnerdnerd.)

boought my havaianas flipflop... FINALLY. (o ya. helped bryan to get one of it too cos he thought of getting a similiar slipper, i meant err. flipflop, as me.)
went w yl to new urban male at cityhall to be eligible for my discounts. (ok. im beginning to sound like some aunty.)
anyway, thanks to yao's brother. :D

i love my flipflop (though i badly wanted that high series. his brother even prompt me that question whether im sure if i wanna get that high series.
come on la. you know how much is it to make your havaianas flipflop higher? it's 50% more of the original price. omg.
o well. maybe i should spend the 50% of that money to buy a nice pair of heels. (im a sucker for heels.)

had desserts after that. at this japanese dessert shop MOF (yes. mof. not related to mos. they named it ministry of food. what a cheesy name.)
iya. never mind.
its pretty yummy. after that 30% discount (because we're pretty. ok. im just kidding.), its like paying 6$ each plus abit of cents lah.
MINE!
ok la. look like shit. that sesame paste. QUEK'S FAVOURITEEEE. SESAMEEEE. X:
look at yl's one la. more presentable.its yummy. love that fried special yummy sweetpotatoooo.

we sat there for superb uberly long, chatchatchat. gossipgossipgossip. (:
free refill of hot green tea!
think they didnt realised that here comes the two greentea vacuum cleaner.
especially me la. i'll have my daily dose of non-sweetened green tea. :D

nice place to chitchat. :)

then walked a lil more till like close to 7pm. bought a dress and a similiar top w yl (haha. we wont wear them together).
it's a steal.
so cheap man.
our dresses are amazingly cheap.
the top too! omg.
like below 9.90$ (prices varies)
if its not that cheap do you think i can afford?!~?!!??!?!?!? (my current financial status now.)
also bought a racer 2 for 20$ from g2000. i bought the darker shade of green and hers something like lime green la. so cheap too right?

ooo. cant wait to go vivocity w her this coming week! wophheee.
i've got my choc fondue thing to look foward too w my another friend. :D

went lingzhi. (again.)
parents' birthday, wedding anniversary always always go there.
luckily for me and my sisters', i'll be the planner. i'll read up makan forums, etcetc and find the nice nice food. :D
anyway,
i hate to admit, its the nicest vegetarian restaurant. i mean of course la. the price for it like not very cheap. but still, can make it lah. and im the one who introduced to them! muahaha.
anyway, never take any photos of the food la..... EXCEPT FOR ONE..:
it's 8$ for just that. one serving.
but it's nice.
and they used it to win some kind of culinary contest.
and its nice.
beautiful.
love it lah.
PHOTOSPHOTOS:
mummy and daddy:

then, as usual, home for cake cutting session:

and this cake...:

supposed to be a surprise for my dad! he's not into chocolate lah. more like he prefers durian cake.
but no. he cant eat the wholecake all by himself. the finisher for the cake will always be my mum... and ME! so we chose chocolate. heck my dad if he likes it or not. wahahaha.
but me, being nice, suggested to mum to surprise my dad w that cake.
like during and after cakecutting session (daddy with his sian face), he'll be like thinking why chocolate.. i dont like chocolateee, in his mind, then ta-dah, my mum will bring out his mini D24 cake from emicake!
BUT MY DEAR YOUNGEST SISTER TOOK IT OUT BEFORE WE EVEN BRING OUT THAT CHOCOLATE CAKE.
so dad wasnt surprise. hopefully he'll be grateful. he better be!
but he didnt know that surprise thing was my idea. but heeeeheee. i would rather he think that it's my mum's idea. :D
anyway, emicake?
first time trying.
that pure addiction.. let me get the description from the site:
Pure Addiction is premium quality chocolate mousse with chocolate-coated almonds and chocolate ganache. (Chocolate lovers say it is the best chocolate cake they have eaten. Yummy!!)
is damn yummy. but its like 30+$.
presenting.. pure addiction:
anyway,
mama says secret recipe try before alrdy. choc-a-bloc too. and that simply chocolate or something like that too. (we're crazy over chocs k?)
we'll alsways get those few ma (thanks to my brilliant idea), so try something new?
and wooo. its nice. :D

ok la. i've gotta work tomorrow. tired. X_X
bye lovelies.

anyway.. i've got a silly friend. (:

2006-10-07T17:09:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY
celebrated that lantern/mooncake/mid-auturm festival w my family (because daddy wont be free on friday).
love the one at marriot the most. :D

ever since daddy bought the first nicest durian mooncake at this hotel called.. i forgot what. (its years back), im addicted to such mooncakes. i mean mooncakes from reputable hotel.
tried the other hotels too (every year dadd will buy! :D). and its all so yummy. even daddy agree to it. (daddy's not a sweettooth)

its not that i've got an expensive mouth. but due to the 1000calories contained within this seemed innocently harmless mooncake, i'll only eat the nice ones.

marriot is the wow.
see how the marriot hotel's stands out:
heee. all of you sure noticed that first la, right?
the rest below are shooooooooooooo.
okok. maybe im biased. arranging in that way.
but damn la. my house got like 5 boxes of mooncake but only 1 box, which was BOUGHT the nicest.
got this too. from bakerzinn, given by the baby's parents. i think it should be quite expensive. i mean at least there's a price there. nice to look at la.
but the taste? nowhere near my marriot's.
swensen's(bought it before 2 years ago) tasted like icecream so no point paying more when you can just get a tub of swensen's icecream (of course i very much prefer buying a tub of ben and jerry's or gelare's icecream!!!)

i told my mum;
"those people might as well wanna give, fork out abit more $$ to give a nice one ma. if not dont give. never mind one ma.. save their money."
X:
ok la. im not so dont appreciate things la. just that i pity my mum who gotta eat the rest up. if im skinny, i'll help her. sadly, im not. and no way am i letting my dad touch the rest.

anyway, marriot is smart. thir box. i think the cost price is way much cheaper than the rest la. the rest is like packed in a very nice way (but plain), marriot's is original. shaped like some chinese building.

o. did i say its kept frozen? yes. in that freezer.
BUT SURPRISINGLY, when i took the first bite, its superb soft. that skin. i thought the skin will be like rock hard.
shit la. think i'll need to work very hard and earn alot of money. i dont like cheap desserts (or taste cheap). and im that dessert girl. im very particular about certain food.
but hmm. i love hawker food too k?

YESTERDAY
potluck was held in my workplace. but not in my department. :X
but i joined in. thanks to michelle. :D
yummy yummy food. too bad i missed the cheesecake. shy.
BUT ITS CHEESECAKE LE. SAD.
i would rather give up my pasta(ok maybe not pasta), beehoon, otah, chickenwings, sushi, potato salad FOR CHEESECAKE!
suddenly i feel like baking my very own cheesecake.
maybe tomorrow.

bought my bikini alrdy. hee.
yl bought one too. of course of a different design.
can't wait to wear to sentosaaaa. sooon. :D
i love my new bikini. the old one is black so its boring. yet the ribbon in the middle was lost at WWW ):
afterthat,
had a surprised enjoyable night. (:
but was deaddead tired the moment i reached home.

ah. going out soon. its like 5.40pm. going townnn w bryan and his gaming friends. i'll need to grab my dad his present cos his birthday is tomorrow!!! love my dad.

o. did i mention that im happy? yao's brother can give me a 20% discount on the havaianas slipper! wohoo. buying it tomorrowwwwww. :D

2006-10-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

gummies. haha. maybe not the second one but its limited edition k? keeping it in its original state. thanks!

no point blogging about what i did or am going to do or whatever crap.
ok. maybe im just plain lazy.
caught a movie on tuesday.
movie review:
john tucker.
this movie is a pretty nice chick flick. splendid.
used to love chick flick movies alot... until suddenly i thought that its too cheesy and the girls are argh.
but john tucker must die is a quite a different kind of chick flick. still, o well. touch of humour.
3.5 stars over 5 stars.
ok. i still love Click. (amm. no thats not the most recent movie that i caught. and ya. im outtapoint.)

ANYWAY,
i've got a long list of shopping list.
funny how my pay has yet to arrive but i've got a whole bunch of crap waiting for me to redeem. yes. i know i've got to make some sacrifices. i'll needa leave some things behind. ): UNLESS, i can get a handsome sugar daddy who wont make me be his slave. (love slave, sex slave, whatever slave)
but where got sugar daddy so nice? pay for my everything and wont ask anything from me.
think only daddy will do that. but too bad i havent been his perfect daughter... ):
but he still loves me. :D and im not those sort who will drain daddy's money.

SHOPPING LIST + wishlist:
(note: dessert never buy/do will die!)

eyecream
havaianas high flowers slippers
bikini
babydoll tube
heels
that racer top from new urban male
thick retro-liked gold earrings
guess watch
fossil wallet, yes its wallet.
chocolate buffet
school bag
shopping bag
shorts
babydoll dress

ok. thats all for now. cant really think of anymore stuff that i want. i'll put it at my profile and slowly cancel out those i've managed to purchase. the rest? i'll aim! :D
o yes. i wanna pass my tp asap. =\

2006-10-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

im down again. and i cant sleep.
i'll always do the wrong things. ):
i'm sorry i always never listen.

down down down.

2006-10-01T00:58:00.000+08:00

my friend has 6 maltase. omg. D:

2006-10-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

just came back from supper w my family (minise my youngest sister).
before that was at bugis w my family too.
before before that met up w yl and shopped a lil.
yes is lil very lil lil kind of lil. how i wish i've got the money to shop. sadly, i dont. D:
maybe, i'll get a sugar daddy. then i'll wrap myself up with fake skin, just in case he accidently touches me. then, i'll just drain his money, grab very single thing i want.... and :D
but no, i wont let him fuck me or kiss me or hug me. its nononono.
if i dont let him go physical with me, will he still buy things for me? =\
ok. i was just kidding. im not a material girl.
ANYWAY. back to the topic.
i bought this shorts. its pretty normal. intended for poly wear. casual casual.
i always tend to oversleep so might as well just prepare something that i can just grab and wear and go without thinking?
and suddenly i just realised 26$ is abit too steep for that kind of shorts.

ok. im tired. slept at like 7.30am yesterday (today) and woke up like 3.15 to meet yl.
maybe i'll just do a short entry. with photos! :D

nightout w my poly girls yesterday (two only actually. am not very close w my coursemates. i did not really socalise in poly. dont ask me why.)
sadly, we looked like a trio of walking zoo. ok, maybe just zebras.
o well. funny how we three were all stripped w/o planning to do it. :X

photos time. no more details.

my free drinks from this bartender at this 'pub' called cube. (its pub k? because nobody's dancing. and its more like a place to play games and chitchat and just drink and chill):
even stick a tissue-folded rose in after that. haha.the 'bouquet'. my another free drink. :D this one is yummy. is chocolateee.
anyway,
purpose of visit: yen hwa wanted to go find her friend working there.
and this random stalk from mr stranger.

a pretty interesting night. lazy to go into details. BYE.

o. joanne's last day at tnt on friday. =\ i dont like that.

2006-09-29T01:52:00.000+08:00

i really want a uniform dnd.
i miss wearing uniform.
its so nice. :D
of course i wont wear back my bvss uniform.

2006-09-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

a video and two photos from hotstones!

sunday. went over to his another aunt's place for some lunch gathering (this time i do not know what's that for).
but their peranakan version of hokkien mee is yummy. like lightlight feel though its still pretty unhealthy(from the obvious visual of that triple layer pork, etcetc).
and there's cheesecake too. :D
euguene brought his dog! (:
so tiny. used to be the size of a palm. :D

and bryan with the dog.
(notice the ee ling's property below? didnt want him to steal them. muahahah)

after that caught the banquet with bryan and his cousins.
and dinner at newton. ooo. chicken wings, fried oyster, sotong, stingray... :D
his uncle treated us. (: thanks!(though he cant get that vibal waves right here in singapore)
ya. monday was stressful. tuesday. wednesday i was really sick. thursday was tiring.

and i miss him already. though we just met for sakae after my work. he's going kl tomorrow.

2006-09-28T03:55:00.000+08:00

friday, its mos. :D

~~OK FUCK. HERE'S MY WEEKLY THING AGAIN. IVE GOT NO FUCKING MOOD TO BLOODY UPDATE. maybe later. bad mood now.~~

a continuation to where i've stopped,

ya. friday it's mos night for me. (:
with bryan, his two cousins and his uncle.
me & him
bryan and his unclefinally, i dont have the urge to vomit when the alcohol seep through my mouth.
but sadly, even though my tastebud approved of it, my tummy says no.
shared this cranberry vodka with bryan and i puked after that. more like while dancing, i can feel me getting soooo sooo fucking tired that i just wanna lie on the ground. when we're at that "retro" arena, i just lie on him completely. rushed to the toilet and puked twice. X:
o well. at least we get to move to the house music(suck on that day! though he's supposed to be some bigshot popular dj), rnb and that retro(love it!).
ooo. i left my bag behind. HAHAHA.
and bloodyhell. keys left behind. was a lil frustrated about it because i was feeling veryvery sick and im stucked outside! in the end stayed over at bryan's.
and i dreamt of them:
ok. thats besides the point. and ya. im just crapping.
speaking of dreams, been having weird dreams that past few days, involving hmm.. *shudders* worse, it didnt felt like a dream. my day/s were affected the moment i stepped into reality.

saturday, like i said went back to collect my bag after working at axa w mango.
ate hotstones. its yummy. the seafood is fresh(better be! it cost 36$ just for that meal).
my seafood combination was crayfish, prawns, scallop, salmon.
its satisfying. :D
pictures pictures!
my salmon!
andhe's elated with his steak.

will update on my sunday and the rest tomorrow or something. am not feeling well. viral fever and gastritis. sad. missed out that event im supposingly going with yl and elaine and the rest. cos elaine's brother is in some manhunt contest. and i heard julian hee's gonna be there!!
im sad. hunkshunkshunks. hahahahaha.
ok. im just kidding about the sad part. X: i just love going out la.. as in got that mood and everything already and this dumbass sickness gotta ruin it.

2006-09-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES. for all you lags out there.

Ee Ling is currently helping TNT, with the entry of important data, photocopying and keeping her life busy by slurping up the company's milo, coffee, milktea. last entry: monday.

tuesday, i cant remember what had happened!
(this portion will be replaced, once i've gained back my memory. but usually, i dont bother.)
wednesday, had to go back to school for some revision. then, i was accompanied by my usual yummy coffeebean mocha over ice, to absorb my notes.
thursday, went down to one of bryan's relative house(apparently it's cheryl and ben's house) for some gathering because one of his uncle(see photo below) from aussie came back for a visit. yes. i was busy mugging. and first time am feeling so so so stress.
started work at TNT today. nice people. am glad there's people of my age grp. attachment, etcetc. some who're older than me can be pretty funny, like this lady i know. ahhh.
you know, actually i've got lots to say previously. but suddenly, i've lost my mood for that.

friday, its mos. :D

OK FUCK. HERE'S MY WEEKLY THING AGAIN. IVE GOT NO FUCKING MOOD TO BLOODY UPDATE. maybe later. bad mood now.

2006-09-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

fuck relationships.

2006-09-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

im quick. (:
just had pizzahut for lunch earlier on. 2 and a half hour ago.
w bong, belinda and mankit.
and here i am blogging about it. :Dyesterday bong called. and i asked her if she wanna go grab some pizzas.. because i missed it!
was a pretty funny the last time i went w her. our runaway secret. X:
the photo below. mankit's missing!
mankit, despite us telling him to squeeze his face in.. but:yay. managed to(below):candid shots!
many more. didnt post everything up. and some is w bong. she took some photos using her hp too.
they left for their major project interview. mine's tomorrow.
and
lovelove the stuffed crust.
my snowflaked pizza.
the cheese that oozing out.(ok, maybe not. disappointment. THEY NEED TO ADD MORE CHEESE!! x:)
LOVE LOVE CHEESE.

o. suddenly im craving for pasta..... :D

2006-09-18T01:53:00.000+08:00

hello runnynose and the weird feeling i had in my tummy now.
i tried this slimtea i found in the cupboard. apparently my dad bought it because he wanted to fakeslim too.
and yes.
desperately hoping for this miracle that i'll be just like those slim models, i made myself a cup of slimtea too.
great. being a nutritionist(in the future,maybe?), i shouldnt be trying all these crap. yaya. wanted to buy those pills last year but got reminded by somebody that me, being a nutritionist shouldnt lose weight by such things. and no notakingofcarbo diet, etcetc. its balanced diet!
ahh. having runs. i might not take that tea again. MIGHT NOT. but still. those stuff about losing weight fast is tempting me... but then again, i thought i was reminded again and again that i shouldnt believe all these crap?

anyway. was at the airport earlier on with my family for our dinner at popeye. (yay! to their buttermilk biscuits that i love. and their nicer than kfc's-mashed-potato mashed potato.)
i love being at the airport. gives me memories. beautiful memories.

i remembered my first overseas trip ON A PLANE when i was in primary 1 to goldcoast australia.
MY FIRST TRIP ON A PLANE!
no. that was not my first trip overseas. (see why i emphasized on the word: PLANE) dad did drive us out of sg to malaysia and stuff. and i was young then! they couldnt bring my two sisters out on a plane when they're like 4 and 6 years younger than me, respectively. so gotta wait till they're older and im much older then(primary 1).
it was STILL a headache for my parents then. my youngest sis was still like a baby? currently 1 yrs old. remembered the sia provided a cradle.
and my that 4yrs younger sis? SHE suffered from motion sickness. (yes. she ALWAYS VOMIT, even in the car. and always always got caning for that. LOL.)
and i remembered sitting next to my cousin, and we played uno(i think.)
then more and more trips. to indonesia, thailand, japan(like a transit kind), usa, australia again, thailand again, blablablablablaa. repeat. i dont know why.
my dad loves to travel. so yeah.
i just know that i love the airport. because i get to travel! which is a whoopeee! those excitement.
but ya. i hate the return trip back to singapore though. when i returned from my trip. mixed feelings. those i-miss-sg and yet also the i-miss-my-holiday feel.
the air at the airport also seemed different.

last time, my dad will also always bring us to the airport to have our lunch after my enrichment courses (phonics i think.) my carrot juice. :D and he'll then bring us to the viewing hall. how i so miss those days when i was young. feel so loved. trouble free.

airport. was always when me and my friends mug for our sec 3 exams. i remembered the bk. and we vandalised(more like pearlyn who did that!) using pencil and yuet ling kept erasing. and us eating bk again and again. ooo. i love the sundae pie. they had that triple chocolate thing too. am obessessed w it. like totaalllly.
im not sure if we really did succeed in studying though. but those memories.. (:
nice.

and had this experience for me. i travelled alone on a plane! was like in year 2004 then.
family still in adelaide. i had to shorten my australia trip BECAUSE OF STUPID POLY. but was looking foward to coming back too because my then special someone was waiting for me to fetch me back. and i had this enormous luggage that i had to drag along.
and yes. i was worried sick and miss my parents like hell when i was on the way back in sg (and of course when im back in sg. forced my mum to call me EVERYDAY).
i was afraid that i will never ever see them again.
that week was hell, but yet not cos i had company.
it was quite an experience for me. imagine yourself on the plane ALONE.. half of you wanted so badly to be in australia with your family.. and also, half longing to return to sg. dad said i'll be able to train myself when i travel to australia for my further studies after poly.
anyway, it wasnt scary. im just too attached to my family.
and ya. the moment i m at the airport. everything seemed so familiar. i felt independent too. so glad i made it.
and that receiving hall. so many people. and yet i gotta spot for one particular person. imagine how hard it was for me since im damn cock-eyed.

i also spent walking around airport once this year with bryan. to just have our lunch and just stroll around. the feeling is just so peaceful. o. and once when his mum treated us to dinner at soup restaurant before her departure to africa(i think?) for some voluntary work.
and
looking at the pilots and airsteward/stewardess makes me happy too..

i've a dream.. and i wished that it will come true..

2006-09-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

Love like you’ve never been hurt before

Dance like nobody’s watching

Work like you don’t need the money

Sing like nobody’s listening

Live like everyday is your last..

2006-09-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

Am in the process of setting up albums in multiply for easier access to photos of my friends.
(yes. please thanks me! and to those who have more! please send them to me so that i can upload! :D)
ya. saw all my old photos. im narcissistic. well, used to. maybe now still a lil. but hey. its a process of growing up right?
must love to look at ourselves. wahahaha. regardless whether you're short, fat, ugly, skinny, pretty, handsome, blabla.

i used to be this fat (like duhs)
mum loves to doll me up. (:
that's my mum! (:
my japanese wear from japan. its authentic. still have it. :D
(actually im a half a japanese. X: ok. just kidding.)
my family. (before my two sisters joined in the fun)

then i became like this.
ya. lazy to scan my primary school pics.
but i do have some seconday school photos in my com:
oh more of my damn act cute pic: and the following i even named it as "act innocent" =.=|||
damn omg.
and more. lol.actually there weren't much changes right? its just that i used to smile like this:
^_______________^
and it will then cause my eyes to appear bigger.
(okok. my eyebags also reduced the size of it. sad. but its true. grrr.)
AND THE CHANGE I DID TO MY HAIR!
( the photo provided below are not the true photo of my perming process.)
maggi hair! used to be what my friend tatzhun used to call me. chinadoll hair etcetc. my grp of poly friends will know about it.
became like this la.
actually worse. this effect was like a year after and i even did some soft rebonding. HAHAH.
my very recent:
think i've got that ugly very curly version:

yes. used to have my rebonded hair..

grr. oh ya. my lovely samsoon ended today. am a lil upset about it. ):
i like this phrase: living life to the fullest.
and also: love like you've never been hurt before.
think quek ever sent me the full phrase for it. i think.

anyway, i seriously think that i must learn to be brave about facing the future.
many people kept telling me about not predicting or assuming or imagining about the future. when i do, it just makes me feel so scared about moving foward.
what's life if im gonna just stuck there having the fear?
i must learn to be brave.
till then. tml i gotta wake up at 10am. i dont really have the mood to blog now. zzz.
(initially while i was watching the show, many thoughts just rushed to my mind. i've got so many things to say. the show just inspired me to blog. but after it has ended and after sooo long, everything's gone. isnt this irritating? i've got a friend who decided to quit blogging, cos he ever told me that its nicer to blog at that moment when thoughts just appear. soo.. yeah. seemed impossible. that's why he stopped blogging. soon. i might. ok. wait. maybe not. i still wanna bore my friends by letting them read about my boring life. haa. )

2006-09-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

whatever.

2006-09-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

NEOPRINTS!
how long have we not acted cute? X:

my birthday (hahaha. indeed its a long awaited one. need to pass to my girls soon!)
one outing recently, w cassie and yl
that's all!

2006-09-13T15:59:00.000+08:00

monday wanted to eat yong tau foo at this place at kembangan there, (bryan overslept so took mc, tsktsk) but it's closed. so went to that joo chiat feifei wonton mee there. i like the one beside the haig girls cos their wonton is oomph. but both the noodles and chilli is more or less the same.
met up w quek, yl and chouchou. after that went kuishin bo. yl having dinner at home so didnt join us.
chouchou's creation. quek asked him to get an ebi fry and he really only took one ebi fry.
my display for desserts!
me+quek's dessert display.

yup. indeed food makes me happy. its delicious. i practically threw down those alaska crab (is that the name? that japanese longlong leggg crab), and salmon sashimi into my tummy.. :D
they even have those special few minutes give away thing. i love the strawberry kisses thing and sesame mochi..

tuesday finally had my yong tau foo, RAW FISH! with bryan. and the yummy clams too. soaked w alcohol. (yes. he took two days of mc. =.=|||)
then dinner was at 85. :D satay and chickenwings for me. :D

ps: i just struggled, fought and YES! managed to overcome my fear.
HELLO WEIGHING MACHINE.
fortunately it still loves me, cos, ta-dah. it gave me the same reading despite the horrible indulgence of good food. burp.

2006-09-11T04:41:00.000+08:00

been a busy(kind of) week.
hooray to the submission of my major project proposal. thanks to me and yao wei.
(i know there's supposed to be 3 in a grp but i dont wish to comment on WHY the appreciation is ONLY shown to just the both of us.)
Basically, had a bday celebration w claud on monday,
then the rush of my mp proposal on wed and thurs,
work at ritz carlton as some packer w yao and others on fri (yes. i didnt sleep! he had only like an hour of sleep to. thanks to the combination of 2 in a proposal),

then club with mango, elithia, kai yan at gotham. more like a trip to an event. saw celebrities LIKE JULIAN HEE! :D
ok. lazy to post up photos. furthermore i gotta wake up in 3 hours time. maybe tomorrow?
then quek and vanessa joined us. it's quek's birthday!
gotham. the crowd was like pretty old.
went mos. paid 20$. =.=|||
why do guys still club when its fucking ex?
o well. back to the topic:
i would saw its a fun, interesting and irritating night.
wont elaborate on more though. just think.
but ya. hate guys who dont respect girls. damn never respect.
a lil small note: girls club = loose?
supper at simpang. bryan came over to fetch me. yl joined in the supper too but quek was just too lazy/tired.
and
i swear i'll never eat at the first stall again. argh. lazy to give more details.
saturday 3e5 or 4e5 class gathering. was pretty ok. yl, bryan and pearlyn crash our party.
haha. ok. meet up w yl at 85 and bryan drove us there.
today, went out w bryan and his friend justin and gf. he bought his electric guitar. then we walked around suntec. was a ok day. but today makes me think, alot.
~~i'm sad and confused.~~

2006-09-05T05:40:00.000+08:00

to die before its our turn.
wondering if there will be any regrets on the way down.
ps: no. currently, im not thinking of doing anything stupid so please dont assume after reading this entry.