"I am affectionate and skeptical" Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.
How to Get Along with Me
Be direct and clear.
Listen to me carefully.
Don't judge me for my anxiety.
Work things through with me.
Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
Laugh and make jokes with me.
Gently push me toward new experiences.
Try not to overreact to my overreacting.
What I Like About Being a Six
being committed and faithful to family and friends
being responsible and hardworking
being compassionate toward others
having intellect and wit
being a nonconformist
confronting danger bravely
being direct and assertive
What's Hard About Being a Six
the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations
Sixes as Children Often
are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent
Sixes as Parents
are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
worry more than most that their children will get hurt
sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries
Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages
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the many wrong turns in life that i took. combined w my unspoken right words.
I am bleeding inside.
1:34 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
just a lil warning. this entry is about me and me and me and my korean heartthrobs (the old and the new). not suitable for people who hates to see me/girls/guys oogle at those pretty faces.
ever since i started watching my lovely samsoon, my craze for korean guys is back! hee.
presenting hyunbin! the name sounds like won bin, my since sec 1 heartthrob. i even brought it to my poly life. :D see! that's won bin.
and they look pretty alike too! :D~~~ see! (i've mixed the photos of won bin and hyun bin. ok. hyun bin and won bin. or won bin and hyun bin. hmmm.) try to see if there's any differences.
can you see any differences? not much right? i think they've the same kind of bambi eye. :D i like. muahahaa. k la. think hyun bin looks more man. won bin is the boyish kind. pure boyish look. hyun bin has this pinch of man in him, mixed with that boyish feel. but stilll... loook so alike. won bin and hyun bin. hyun bin and won bin.
oh ya. i like korean girls too. X: and no. im not a les. i like their looks as in i wanna have that kind of looks. :D makes me admire... =somebody like song hye kyo!:
I am bleeding inside.
4:41 AM
Friday went back sch to meet up w our(me and yao) supervisor. supposed to have another member(sitihajar) but she's busy. i love my project. cos its creating healthy dishes for TP's cafe! wohoo. gonna whip some nice(i hope) dishes. :D of course the ugly part: learning to do sensory evaluation, the report writing, the proposal, the correct method to enlarge the recipe size, etcetc. i wished us all the best.
at night, gave pearlyn a bday surprise. Was peter's idea. (: glad she likes it. (: janejane bought a yummy cake from chocs. very thoughtful of her since she knew plyn dont fancy cakes and probably prefer a more expensive one(ok la. actually who dont? i realised as we or i got older, i dont request my bday cake from my parents to be from prima deli but from other nice places. :D :X)
and to be a lil out of topic, try choc bloc. its not very expensive actually and its pretty nice. and also, try secret recipe's!!! their Chocolate Indulgence is damn nice and sadly, sinful. seriously sinful. cos once, my family bought the wholecake and everytime whenever i had a slice of it; especially in the morning, i dont feel hungry throughout the wholeday. like got this bloated buttery feel. their oreo cheese is also :D but oh. i think their drawing sucks. i think i'll rather write the wordings on the cake by myself. X: alright, back to where i'm supposed to be.
see her smile. :D the girls present. :D had a gross/ghost photo taken too whereby we smeared chocolate fudge all over our lips, and under the ghastly light, we took a photo of us (think its w nicole). waiting for the rest of the photos too! me and yl got kissed by plyn with her choc lip on the cheek. and amm. i managed to smudge a choc covered tissue on plyn's face. X: initially i didnt want to as it will risk my life of getting sabotage too. but silly nicole, when she was like rubbing the tissue of chocolate fudge, it was actually covered. then plyn managed to struggle and she dropped that piece of tissue. since its like nearer to me and yl and yl had difficulties, i just couldnt hesitate and X: immediately, me, nicole and jane ran away. cos we were guilty. and we suceeded. :D
saturday, sakae supper buffet. :) we had some pretty ammm. i dont know? some conversation about our past. but o well. and i didnt realised he was making this:
i didnt even noticed! X: it was after he 'removed' the two cups and quickly close back(for dont know what reason X:), then i knew that he was trying to fix that word. (: it was after when i realised, then i took a photo of it. (:
o. and the photo above had its secret hidden meaning. am not telling what. X: and he's camera shy for dont know what reason too. haha. see!: :)
today ate katong laksa w him. (: and at night, i met up with my family for a dinner at crystal jade. hoho. the lamian and xiao long bao. :D i feel so fat. dad even bought pizzas from pizzahut home. =\ wanted to eat somemore but amm. tml lah. haha. sakae, crystal jade, pizza hut. i dont think i'll dare step on the weighing machine. dont wanna upset myself. X: maybe, next time after my situps and other stuff.
I am bleeding inside.
1:19 AM
before i shall mark on how beauteous my past few days was (ok la. in a way. must learn to appreciate and find joy in it.), just wanna tell everybody not to ask me about my exams if i do meetup with you. dont ask, just dont. you'll know if you're supposed to. you can just imagine what had happened. think of the best. think of the worst. whatever it is, i wont say anything about it. probably just a "ok lo." usually if i wanna let someone know, i'll just say it w/o being asked. its not that i dont like you or i dont trust you or stuff like that, i just prefer to keep things to myself now. (: oh. and i dont know why this gloomy feelings just splashed on me the moment i think about tomorrow. decisions. decisions. quick.
I am bleeding inside.
1:09 AM
Friday, August 25, 2006
two minds.
overwhelmed with robust illusions, paralysized with fear. those swirls, with one deadly turn awaiting.
composing a spiked melody, a crimson red path played along. choiced silence, unexpected desire.
anguished agony, the soothing pain, blooded thoughts, stained smiles.
I am bleeding inside.
2:33 AM
i'll say i lose it like.. 99.99%. thanks for extending them for crazy me. pain that shouldnt even be there. silly silly silly. cellphone number 2. lesson learnt. *just some very personal thought. i would just wanna jot it down perhaps you/him/her/somebody/anybody will understand. it cant really be explained. read beneath the words. alright. quit guessing. i just wanna display this entry but i was hoping it wont trigger those curious minds.
and you know what? so far, i screwed up my life. but am picking up the broken pieces and fixing them back together. i hate my filthy mouth that'll just hurt certain people. they just never got through the brain before being put together into a beautiful melody.
I am bleeding inside.
2:20 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
been mugging, or at least tried to. im worried but somehow, at times, nothing just seemed to enter my goddamnblardy head. im sneezing like shit for goodness sake. think my body's weakness is acting up again. i supposed some of my secondary school friends remembered that i'll have my weekly dosage of flu. think mango should remember. o. speaking of her. can't wait to hit chinatown w her to get our belt. most importantly, our fave dessert. kinda missed her in someways. hahaha. though i met her like on sunday? but its short one to accompany her to grab a dress at TM. my week hasnt been pretty good. but was ok in a way. good at some point. tried newyork newyork. yummy. thanks to bryan for financially supporting part of my this meal cos im like freaking broke. next week will be my TP. im freaking scared and worried. =( grrr.
anyway. somethings just pull my mood down. not sure what is it exactly. maybe i do? i just iya. damn. %$#%^&
I am bleeding inside.
12:56 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
yesterday, went down all the way to boonlay to catch a movie w him. the cinema is amm. pretty creepy. but jurong point seemed like a nice place to shop. HAHA. was a pretty packed day too. didnt expect my $4.30 transport for a 20mins interview can be so worthwhile. was busy printing notes after notes for today's open book test.
today. darn. wasted one 8m question. it's like i can practically copy the whole chunk out from yao's grp's report... grrr. but o well. hopefully i can pass the overall. thanks for helping me photocopy the notes and report. and su ping too! both didnt even charge me. o man. (: was a busy day today la. which caused me to have headache. its a real headache, which even caused him to send me home. |: appreciate it alot.. (:
rushing my damn logbook. it suck being a perfectionist. cos when im like doing this kind of crap(unless its damn last minute and im grasping for air), i'll want to submit a neat work.. which is not neccessary for this case. but i just enjoy doing it. (not during the process actually. is after completing it. the achievement. the satisfaction.) i redid the recordings of practical 1 like 4 times? serious. been tearing the notebook of my logbook. first time was cause my table was ugly. second time was because i've used too much of the liquid paper. third? handwriting sucks. finally, the 4th time why im tearing the whole practical 1 log-data out,- i forgot to add in the aims of the experiment. but i just want a perfect work.
some random thoughts(ok. not really random): the truth kills. but telling lies, kill, too. *ponderponder
I am bleeding inside.
4:08 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
what do i usually do online: chat(seriously depending on my mood cos sometimes i really have no mood so i might just ammm. ignore. sorry.), reading - blogs, forums, anything, games(now? not really.), watching of animes(now? not really)..
well. i'll definitely bloghop. to read people's life. only few la. i dont know why but there's a few i'll always go visit. also, just to kill my time. one thing ive realised during my bloghopping journey: everybody is sad. well, almost. seriously, everybody's life is like screwed up - for dont know what reason. HEY. this ive got to question myself too! cos grey clouds are always hanging above me. shooooooooooooooooo!
received a friend's sms saying bout her f up life. she accidentely sent them to me (supposingly for other people) AND see.! this accidental sms is sad too. =(
think its the air lah. this sadness gas is puffing the whole of singapore. only a certain age range will be affected and will catch this bad germs. who's that damn culprit producing tanks and tanks of sadness gas and releasing them?!
grr. or maybe im just starting to see the real world. sorrows. tell me that im wrong. great. just great. i wished everyone, including myself, will be happy.
I am bleeding inside.
3:36 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
my money entrepreneur minded mind is like back again. inspired by nelson. he suddenly asked whats popular now cos he wanna start selling stuff too. items must be special too. we'll be like generating for ideas w eyes wide open. ideas ideasss... i always get excited when i have this idea of setting up a business. hoho. $.$
I am bleeding inside.
1:05 AM
ridiculously made a trip down to giraffe at 12 for nothing. meeting was actually at 3pm. surprisingly i wasnt like angry. just feel amm. like i wake up early for nothing! and you know, im like those horrible creatures of the night. so me, mango, quek, nicole, alfred, alexius walked around ps. well. ok. some corrections. alexius didnt really come w us cos he went taka to get his laselle art materials. quek? studying at bk so its just left with the four of us to shop! you know, personally, i hate shopping. but at the same time, retail therapy just gives me that adrenalin drive. its like when i see something that i love, i'll like get so excited and happy. its like seeing some cute guy on the street and you get that infatuated feel. (actually, i'll forget how that guy looks like..) but ya. if i remember... maybe its true love? HAHAHA. just like my clothes. i usually try to decide if i should buy by thinking, "if my mind just gets crazy by thinking of it for a week or two, i'll come back and grab it!" (that's if i can remember my that love-at-first-sight future/will-be purchase.) sadly, there's something that's pulling me back from digging my money out: my bank account statement. i'll always get reminded of how broke i am. and how screwed up the rest of my week will be if i just pull out my cash/debitcard/posbcard. arghhh. never mind bout that. ANYWAY! i j u s t b o u g h t a p i n k d r e s s. and im like freaking freaking broke. debts piling. grr. you know why? im afraid that dress will be gone. its actually left w M size so gotta go down alll the way to wisma for that! alright. mango bought the same one too. and no. we wont be wearing it together on the same day unless we're like outta our mind for that day and decided to be some siamese twins. its like we saw that salesgirl wearing that dress handling something to nicole and when we saw we're like :D~~ ok. mango saw it first but i didnt notice that salesgirl. i was like telling her "ebase got sell not ah" and yes. so happy when i saw it hanging there. saw another nice top at forever 21. and its freaking 43$ for a top thats like tummy bearing. grr. i'll need a sugar daddy for a day or two. :D
o. im getting fatter. hopefully not. but given my indulgence of CARL'S PORTEBELLO (whatever is the spelling) today and last night, and also that yummy toast from wisma (me and mango shared cos we've gotta go down wisma after parting w them to collect our dress and we're feeling like some pig.. so... and dinner's like sooo close.)
o ya. today's meeting is interesting. seeing how shawn gets so f up. wahahaha. im mean. i just dont really like him but well. no hatred. no. no. and amm. ok. i just dont like to work w him thats all. and arggh. he's damn irritating when he's voicing out his unhappiness on how most people been bitching bout him.. with his that irritating slang. damn act like some "im so cool with that slang" guy. can hear his accent lah! ok. shall stop here. he didnt really offended me except that he's acting like some pro working there w his bossy attitude. it's zila who i should %^$^% bout. ahhh. damn. alright. nobody really offended me directly. but zila's a %$$%^$%^. seriously.
I am bleeding inside.
12:28 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
oooo. bryan just told me cos i set to the wrong resolution. wahaha. im a noob. o well. it'll be in my memory anyway. the fireworks are :D
I am bleeding inside.
3:29 AM
Videos for the NDP 2006 last firework. From france. heard that they've gotten 2nd for the firework display and its pretty expensive to buy. true enough it's very beautiful.. especially if you're viewing it w somebody who matters to you. =) for the video its not clear actually because it's sorta last minute yet not quite last minute so didnt bring my camera along. taken using my hp so the effect sucks! and the location isnt v good too. too last min. got a huge tree blocking. but right there, we can still see and somehow, that elated feeling just concealed the previous sombre feeling perfectly. cabbed down w bryan. exex. tsktsk. bryan from esplanade cabbed dwn to simei then back to esplanade. so its freaking $30+! ya. as you can see from my previous post, which was posted like near to 7pm, im still at home blogging some $#%#$% entry. been a pretty bad start for the day but it ended beautifully. i guessed there wont be any no bad moodswings tonight. hopefully. agreed w him that it was fun. =) bryan's my silly lil boy. i can feel that im important to him. damn my temper. damn my insensitivity. thanks hon for wanting to record them down to surprise me. you're so silly. but thats pretty silly cos the atmosphere isnt there anymore. its who you're watching the fireworks with, live. but i really appreciate your effort.. and im sorry i made you scared. =( im sorry that im so mean. im really mean. =( wished to take back what ive said but..... im damn insensitive. think ive hurt you quite a number of times. your actions and effort made me think. i feelso loved. and what i promised you at the cab, i will not break it. i'll be true to my words. i promise.
I am bleeding inside.
2:28 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
All the promises we made All the meaningless and empty words I prayed, prayed, prayed ... Yeah...eh Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh All the promises we broke All the meaningless and empty words I spoke, spoke, Spoke ... Yeah...eh...eh...eh...eh...eh...eh...
(part of the cranberries - promises lyrics)
I am bleeding inside.
6:44 PM
wrong turns in life. erroneous steps that i took. feeling drained and frustrated. wished the blackhole could just suck me away.
I am bleeding inside.
6:38 PM
suddenly i feel like playing arcade. played on monday with bong. virtual cop. :) fun. was trying to get a present for her boy but in vain. (ok la. like walked for bout 2 hours or 3? considered to be short alrdy? but imagine we walked and walked for 2 hours from tm to cs then to tm then cs then tm then cs then then then) also cos of her budget la. HAHAHA. shopping at tampines mall and century sq walking to and fro like a couple of times, the feel can be like shopping at orchard. ooo. had my pasta mania al funghi after for so long. love pasta. :D and yes. was damn busy trying to memorise my jap[anese play. its hard. but its very fun. my team members were pretty nice. =) love the script too. hahaha.
I am bleeding inside.
12:41 AM
today's the grand opening to start studying for my exams. went to the library to mug w quek. though its not like i studied alot(with my napping and drifted mind), its pretty not bad. still an achievement for me. X:
I am bleeding inside.
12:01 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
I am bleeding inside.
2:41 AM
and to myself! :D
I am bleeding inside.
2:26 AM
this post is dedicated to mango!!!
I am bleeding inside.
2:20 AM
presenting my horrendous right eye of the day. so small and swollen and red. and evil. MUAHAHAHA. (ps. im not crying when the photo was taken. so yes. if you were to click on it and looked at it closely, you can see a layer) i really thought it will just drop out anymoment and i even cried while saying to my mum that my right eye is going to drop. cos it really felt like it will drop out any moment. i dont even dare glance sideways. i just wanna close my eyes and protect it. it looked like a layer of jelly getting ready to detach from my eye. and it seriously looked like those steamed fish eyes. when i close my eyes, my right eye felt like there's a tongue sticking out of my eye. you know those cockles? their shells might be close but you see their red flesh =P out of that shell. mum nearly wanted to rush me to A&E. fortunately didnt cos it wasnt that serious afterall. she phoned many people (dad: for a carride, aunts: for amm. cos she panicked?) one of my aunt (a qualified nurse working at that line for several years) advised us to go to a clinic first. doctor said it could be an insect's sting. cruel insect. of all organs, it bit my eyeball. may you get choked by my eye. or maybe it could be due to some allergy. anyway, its better now. except that its still red. grrr.
I am bleeding inside.
1:57 AM
sunday was a sumptuous dinner at tung lok's group very good service they provide. good food too. (responsive to complains very well. i might have mentioned it to you if you're my chit-chat friends or im not sure if i did posted an entry on that.) anyway ate at this vegeterian restaurant. ling zhi. at this orchard there. liat towers. it's pretty yummy. not like those normal vegeterian food (duhs. their cuilinary skills are pretty :D and its not cheap either.) those who can take mushrooms and stuff. do give it a try cos some tasted like meat. i think that's the only vegeterian restaurant i like. X:
one of their award winning dishes. some pumpkin thing. one piece for $7++. worth it.
wednesday was national's day. i dont find it a joyous occassion though. X: picnic-ed with my family and cousins and family near kallang river there. pizzas from pizzahut. old chung kee. blabla. caught a glimpse or two of the fighter planes with that red colored smoke bursting out of their turboengines, those parachutists that looked pretty tiny from my point of view;- like those struggling no-winged birds with umbrellas overhead, this huge singapore flag, yada yada.
a preview:my pretty cousin. pretty cousins: actually i've got similar aged cousins. just that he's not captured and two of them didnt go. (and of course there's another from my paternal side, but that'll be another story)
nightfalls. beautiful moon. accompanied by fireworks.
brillant. and more pics. and the night is silent again. the moon looked so lonely. ah well. i love fireworks when im happy. but if im not... anyway. have uploaded videos of the fireworks. (if you're interested?) frankly speaking i wont really go watch them again... as it serves no purpose.. but ah well. just for fun. :)
I am bleeding inside.
12:29 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
assumption kills. this i know. it'll just pollute my mind with unwanted thoughts that will then linger around. stupid brain. mr close friend sorta knows what's on my mind, the moment the question is popped out. but, o well. i'm meant to be laughed at. (of course in a funny way)
imagine if one just let assumptions take over their mind. if its bad, it'll just shut them from the truths and lead them into the dark path; pain, anguish, whatever. (i meant if the assumption is THE NEGATIVE.)
im a clown. because I ALWAYS assume the BAD when its actually ammm. not necessary. cos its the complete opposite. you're bad. you know im reluctant to say them and you know what's clouding inside this organ of mine. ok. still, you're bad. HAHA.
ok. but on the dark side. this assumption made by another party (totally different case im telling you) allowed him to think of certain stuff. think he's still angry. and i dont know why. argh. up down up down.
I am bleeding inside.
3:07 AM
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I am bleeding inside.
3:04 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
one impt thing that i should possess is the adaptation to changes. i dont view the future w an open mind. partly is because im afraid and fear of what might happen. ive just sobbed my problems through w you listening to it. how long can this go on? eternity,? might be possible. maybe harshness is what that can really kill me. at least it will be neat.
im terribly sorry to those who is feeling this sucky me.. like you, you you you you me me me me me them them them them... my parents and bryan..
I am bleeding inside.
6:12 AM
friday's mp titles are out. seemed pretty interesting. met up w yao at mac (before joel and wen han joined us). yao let me choose the title! wahahaha. went brewerks. initially they wanted to club (im sooo not properly dressed) but in the end the happy hours are over and we're not very keen so decided to just chill. tried the fruity beer! haha. was supposingly a blueberry beer but hmm. bad feedback from us. but actually, i dont quite fancy beer so i guess, or should i say so far there's none that makes me :D~ not those alcohol kind of person anyway. but joel said there's good reviews.. perhaps its the anothyer beer... that most selling beer? ask for recommandation. the light version. think its that. (if you peeps wanna go there) played truth or dare. joel's like the gamemaster lah. asked us most of the questions. cocky and some pretty private questions. i delayed one question all the way to the cab and home. X: cos its too hard to answer to that. pretty sensitive questions. but to prevent from losing their trust, i smsed them my answer. X: nobody choose dare actually. if anybody did it will be superb fun i guess. tortures and ridiculous stuff. a pretty interesting and carefree night. talk cock lay flat on the rocks outside esplanade. and with what rubbish like points deduction for being lame and stuff. yao's got the highest with all his farts. o. we walked from clarke quay all the way to esplanade. exercise exercise. anyway was pretty bored so decided to hang out late w them and YET i dont wished to go home yet.
today's a pretty wobbly day for me. not sure its because i slept very late last night and woke up like 11.30am in the morning? or cos its just me. phone's not w me. was emotionally unstable too. very unstable. $#@%$#$^% i've made enquires w quek bout the australia uni. just by thinking about going australia to study gives me mixed feelings. brave and sad. hahaha. i've few stuff i dont wish to leave behind. but at the same time, i know after getting my honours (4fuckinglongyears), i'll be this brave independent ee ling i've longed to be. meet up w bryan at night. click was nice. makes me think.
I am bleeding inside.
2:22 AM
Friday, August 04, 2006
iya. and i dont want people to guess my thoughts. im really upset with myself that im making things difficult. dont you just wished that i'll just disappear?
I am bleeding inside.
1:36 AM
and pardon me. i've this complex mind that's conquering me. how can anybody understand me when i dont understand myself too. if i just rot at home and just think, think and think and think, nothing else. no tvs, computers, sleeping, etc. will i die from my every hour changing mood?
I am bleeding inside.
1:32 AM
what an interesting day. lil sleep makes me an extremely grouchy girl. project, project, project. misunderstandings. no food. hungry. i've got to pick myself up. grrr. what's with me man. i cant control my emotions. %$#%^# anyway, today's yao's dad gave hwa a shock. cos he suddenly appeared in front of me(happened to bump into him at tm), and disturbed me by asking me for my ic. hwa thought he was some ammm.. i dont know? stranger? if last time i've ever mentioned to you, yao's got a dad who seldom people will get to have. i cant imagine my dad doing those stuff. and im gonna wear specs even when im out. maybe. maybe. just maybe. i looked like a teacher. (accordingly to hwa) nerdnerdnerd. and definitely fugly.
I am bleeding inside.
1:25 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. i think ive some serious attitude problem. i hate it when such feelings get over me. i dont wanna be sad for no fucking reasons. i just wanna scream them all out loud. not to anybody because i dont wanna guess what the other party think of me when i just curse and swear and cry and complain. you know the feel when you are so damn lost? damnit. i wished to be alone.
I am bleeding inside.
2:25 AM
grr. suddenly i thought of listening to this song. and this feeling of sadness instantly overwhelmed my thoughts. its a beautiful song from this very nice korean movie.
I am bleeding inside.
1:51 AM
thats what you breathe when you're in the guys' toilet. (maybe girls too) ya that pungent smell is combined to that.
this is slightly better. sort of the air we breathe? cos experimented from my school's lab. and sometimes, its your priviledge to breathe in some microbes that loooks like a star! (below)actually those starry microbes are rejected from the royalties of the star family. they're the rejects. the lowerclass. but ah well. its still an honour to be able to let a star enter your nose. :D
happy birthday mummy. orea cheesecake from secretrecipe! it might not look good (due to the ugly decoration of the staff working there), but it tasted fantastic! its 39.90 for a wholecake, which is relatively cheap. and a slice for 4.50 (i think). starbucks orea cheesecake is a XD too. its slightly more expensive but its yumyum. try the choc indulgence too. its fantastic. my family photo. i love them. and love you mum. and dad. its another day of pigging. with my kenny roger's dinner. macaroni and cheeeseeee :D~~~
I am bleeding inside.
1:14 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
and i hope. everything will just float away or be gone, along with the wind.
I am bleeding inside.
1:42 AM
and i hope. everything will just float away or be gone along with the wind.
I am bleeding inside.
1:42 AM
ikea's yummy meatball and chicken wings for lunch. it comes along with that pizza hut's new cheesy thing for my dinner. sakae and tiramisu (from coffee bean and sadly, it sucks. starbucks much better. =\) had these for sunday and today(monday) respectively. im a sucker for yummy food.
bought my wedges0(finally!) w quek. got some last min call from her to have lunch w her after her school. and yeah. less than a month before the commence of my exams. im worried sick. but arent doing anything YET(i really hope its YET and not wont be doing anything kind of shit). wtf right? there's SOOO many other things on my mind apart from my study issues. having some personal affairs waiting for me to solve. im not comfortable saying what but i know its definitely affecting my moodswings. please just let me be. i'll let it go in bits and pieces to anybody who asked(am doing that alrdy). i dont wanna be forced into saying what's occupying that fist-sized brain of mine. just let your imaginations run wild. exhausted. i missed this optimistic ee ling that i once knew.
I am bleeding inside.
1:29 AM
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me. and only me.
13 july 87 cancerian.
applied food science student.
attached.
shopping. my forte.
sports. my love.
good food. irresistable.
note.
my thoughts are everchanging.
my emotions are able to race up to that.
i'm complicated.
'enuff said.
sometimes i dont really quite understand myself either.
so
how am i supposed to let you know more about me?
presenting hyunbin!
and they look pretty alike too! :D~~~ see! (i've mixed the photos of won bin and hyun bin. ok. hyun bin and won bin. or won bin and hyun bin. hmmm.)
can you see any differences? not much right? i think they've the same kind of bambi eye. :D
the girls present. :D
had a gross/ghost photo taken too whereby we smeared chocolate fudge all over our lips, and under the ghastly light, we took a photo of us (think its w nicole). waiting for the rest of the photos too!
so small and swollen and red. and evil. MUAHAHAHA. (ps. im not crying when the photo was taken. so yes. if you were to click on it and looked at it closely, you can see a layer)
my pretty cousin.
pretty cousins:
actually i've got similar aged cousins. just that he's not captured and two of them didnt go. (and of course there's another from my paternal side, but that'll be another story)
accompanied by fireworks.
and the night is silent again. the moon looked so lonely.
ah well. i love fireworks when im happy. but if im not...
this is slightly better. sort of the air we breathe? cos experimented from my school's lab.
and sometimes, its your priviledge to breathe in some microbes that loooks like a star! (below)
actually those starry microbes are rejected from the royalties of the star family. they're the rejects. the lowerclass. but ah well. its still an honour to be able to let a star enter your nose. :D
my family photo. i love them.
and love you mum. and dad.