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Thursday, October 12, 2006

The ICU ward is scary. Tears, whispers. Many kept asking him to wake up. They touched him, hoping that he can feel. 19 is just way too young.
Later, his sis will message me about the outcome; their decisions. Unless, he wakes up.

As long as the machine is still helping him to take in his every breath, I’ll still pray for him. Everybody will, too.

I can hear his voice. And the way he call me “ah ling ahh”
Also, his weird, funny and sometimes pretty gayish kind of actions.
My bubbly friend.


Maybe he’s happier now. Maybe he’s up there deciding to return or not.

As long as the machine is still helping him to take in his every breath, he still got a chance.

Maybe he’s feeling very lost. Or maybe he’s too nice that god wants him back.
Wondering, Is he reluctant to return back to reality?
Of course, most people would rather stay in their sweet dreams. Well, as least I do. But that’s not a very nice thing to do too.

Heard from his mum telling to his relatives (the guys eavesdrop on the conversation), he fulfilled his wish to have his since 1987 curly hair straight. Was really curly. And now its rebonded.
I supposed he wanted to look good at the start of the new semester. And I hope he still can.

As long as the machine is still helping him take in his every breath, there’s still hope.

Hello yang? Can you hear us? I want you to share w us how you fought for your life. How you managed to survive this critical moment. Yes, in your t-shirt, jeans and slippers.


Everybody seems to be disappearing.
If I were to be gone one day, I want to be dressed in a very beautiful gown, lying in a glass or maybe, a white coffin will do. Not sure if its expensive, but if ya, just a normal coffin will do.
And I want all my blog entries to be printed out, so that I can bring back all my memories with me, to where I’ve come from.
Sorry. But seeing people disappearing makes me think a lot. I hate this pessimistic me. Was I ever like that before I enter poly? Argh. Changes.
And yes, one last thing, I love whoever who loves me.

I am bleeding inside.
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