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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

i really love you.

so many things happened over the past few days. happy and sad.
i dont know where to begin.
perhaps, i'll start off by saying sorry to my love.
hey.
sorry
for being a bitch.
for hurting you.
for every bad things i've done.
though i was forgiven by you, i'll never be able to forgive myself.
anyway,
i love you.
i wont bury myself in my phobia. i'll try.
thanks for loving me.
for forgiving me.

i love you.

suddenly, i realised i've never said i love you to him before. as in confess them in my blog.
and i hope he did managed to read my this entry. because i really dont wish to hurt him anymore.
o well.
i seriously suck.
i should just disappear.
i dont deserve to be loved.
never mind about it.

suddenly i feel lousy.
i wanna erase that part of his memory.
ah. i should have seen it coming.
what's most hurting is that i've hurt him.

maybe i'll go and take a bath.
perhaps i'll have the mood to blog all the happy happy things that had happened after that; in contrast to this sad entry.
whatever.
bryan, i love you.
and thanks.

I am bleeding inside.
2:31 AM