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Sunday, October 15, 2006

been feeling very lethargic.
hospital trips on tues and wed, with hopes that you'll wake up.
thursday, you left us.
never am i gonna see you waving from a distance.
that voice shrieking "ah ling ahh."
the wide open arms action indicating that you want a hug.
your gayness.

i was looking through your photos taken from my digi cam that very night,
miguel agreed that you took too many silly photos for us to remember you.
friday, i realised, maybe you're happier. you seemed peaceful.
maybe it's better that they let you go.
god sent you down to touch our lives.
to let me/him/her/everybody know such a great friend do exist.
you're like a sacrifice.
to remind us: please cherish your loved ones.
and.
maybe god wants you back.
to stop you from living in reality.
because reality, is painful.
heaven's wonderful, right?


dont really have much photos of us.. all was taken with the rest too.. but anyway:
(ya. not sure who suggested to have this kind of shots taken. lol. so kid. yang's one of the slippered foot. and the extra foot was yao. =.=||| im the only girl's foot.)

sorry i did not send you off on saturday.
despite your best friend's effort on trying to find out the place of incineration etcetc.
i was even thank(ed) by him for trying. ):
i'll miss you my friend.
thanks for your company.
thanks for helping.
thanks for everything that you've done.
thanks for the beautiful memories.
my dear yang (1987-2006), rest in peace.
i'll always remember you.


anyway, im feeling pretty heavy hearted.
i dont really know the real cause.
but what i know, i feel that im going through another revolution of change.
this is scary. and i arent sure when it will end.
sorry to whoever i've given attitude to during these few days.
esp to bryan. im sorry about last night. i enjoyed our date yesterday. it's been awhile since we've really gone out.
sorry for neglecting you.
anyway
was at vivo with yl on friday.
the deck.
so beautiful.
i felt so happy and carefree the moment i got up there.
and
at least i realised im not alone...

I am bleeding inside.
11:33 PM