IMAGE IS LOADING, PLS BE PATIENT.
Monday, February 28, 2005
kinda happy today.. cos of his lil gesture that makes a difference. thanks boy~
supposed to meet him after his maths at 5pm ma. supposed i assumed was to meet at 4.30 because his tutorial ended early.. but silly me didnt suspect anything funny when he suggested 5pm. perhaps he concealed them too well? or maybe its blur me. hiaks.
he bought rotiboy for me. hoho. after his tutorial lo. *anyway no school for me today!* hmm. was surprised. he came to my blk to give me. hurhur.
really appreciate for what he did lo. i also wanna try and understand love arent measurable. its like do not see how much effort one puts in before you take a move. because in a relationship its about sacrifice. and its an unselfish world.
watched ranma 1/2 at my house before going to the library to try study. hee.
sent our last few mms before march arrives. because that means END OF FREE MMS! sad.
this lil fishy from my dad's aunt house the fishy-tanky. hurr. finding nemo! =X from yesterday anyway.
showing that i'm sad? cos today's the end of free mms! at the library btw. today. hiaks.
a kiss for him. for his hardwork today. look how tired he is. *chuckles*
happy
sobbbb. no more free mms no more free mms. sad sad sad.ok. now my thoughts for today. well, cos of a conversation i had with my boy about some peep disgusting *PUI* character.
actually, there's one incident, unspoken, that built a fiction, between the relations of people. its because of this, that we decided to have this conversation.
its like there's many different kind of people. of cos everybody have flaws, is whether its acceptable or not.
i came across one who pushes the blame to people, when its actually not the victim's fault. its like that person expects the poor victim to do certain stuff when its clearly stated that its a self responsibilty being pushed to another party. uh-uh. no good.
one can be damn selfish too. this scenerio whereby everybody's feeling lethargic. so please. i dont exactly like that someone who think everybody should give in to that someone, just because that particular peep is feeling darn restless. i mean everybody is right? some is even more dead because of the amt of work thats a heap more. thats being very selfish especially if the work arent related to the poor victim.
i guess its done cause the victim seldom voice out the unhappiness, for that victim is too forgiving. and yes. what kind of shit is that right? to actually bully someone whos weaker. stinks. its like come on, if the person is one tyrant, i am sure the bully wont tyrannised that somebody. eeews.
of cos there's one flaw in some peep whereby that particular one makes it sound as if alot effort has been made to mould out the particular task assigned. and sad to say, its not properly done. piece of crap. and guess what? that particular person tries to climb their way up to grab every opportunity to get the credits, making it a surface reflected that this peep is one angel, but look closer, that peep is actually a devil . worse, the work was being pushed to the more forgiving ones, making them feeling damn fcuk up. argh. and just leave them in the lutch. washing their hands in the golden basin. PUI! the worse thing is that peep thought that the contributions were mostly theirs. WO PUI! and i hate it if stupid orders were given, when those orders werent important because its common sense! trying to potray a leadership quality? WO PUI!
growls. i am not exactly pin-pointing at anybody. i just dont exactly am please with such *eeeks* character. i cant stand if anger were vent openly if there's no retort. i cant stand to see people being treated unfairly.
i cant stand it if people tries to be the good guy around when they are actually not. WO PUI. i hate people who lie! trying to paint a hard-working image, a self-less sacrifice when the work were merely just done by pure thinking of what makes sense when it is insufficient! and guess what?
"i dont care.. let *toooot* do the rest."
come on. i mean everythinG? it becomes more like the victims are doing everything and that appears to be the good-angel-one have this pure laziness and blaming and the tyrant attitude that were invincible.
fortunately, i arent much of the victim. just that i cant stand seeing it happening on other ppl. if its too much of what i can take it, believe me, i can be as blunt as you can imagine. see me flare up one day. =X
I am bleeding inside.
11:56 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
this entry gonna be purplishy cos its dedicated to my dearie 'cuzzie' CASSIE hurhur.
was bout the celebration yesterday [26feb] for her early birthday.
we had a very simple dinner of fish and chips, nuggets, and her yumyum potato salad! hurr. simple yet good. i mean instead of those normal bbq whereby everybody arent keen to bbq them.
people present: cassie*of course, me! yl, mei tong, claud, plyn, liyin, nicole, sarah, jane, jasmine, hh, johnathon, brylnel and i-forgot-whats-his-name leh.
was alright actually. before that i had tuition with my boy before meeting yl to go cassie house together. we were the early birds in fact. lols.
we simply eat, talked, played with sparkler. hiaks. and phototaking session.
ahh! and thanks to claudine especially, lols. and quek~ that i got 'molested' by them.. =\
our sparks.
sparkling br***t *teet* and i swear the 'model' wasnt me! =X
just us girls. the guys were too ugly to be inside. =X
err.err. waiting..
the colors family!
another one! acting cute. hurr. with mt inside too. =D
happy family~
presenting the wanky colors
me,clauud,cass,yl,mt.. *cheers!*
the birthday girl. muahahaha! opps!
cake cutting session. the cake was baked by her mum. yums.
there's still more. but well, just posting up a few.
anyway today went to my dad's aunt house cos she cooked. hurhur. i love going there to eat cos of the food that were so rich. =X and yes. abalone again. hiaks. was bored actually. but how can i resist such temptation!? muahahahahahahahahaha. my dad's aunt and her family belongs to those rich peeps so of course their food will be more... =XBURP.
I am bleeding inside.
11:06 PM
Saturday, February 26, 2005
apologies to the outdated bloggg. computer was down. and yes. the pure laziness of me strikes again. of course with the mugging of the quizzes thats draining me dry. *OUCH*
nothing much happened actually. only my damn phone is deteriorating. my moodswing is back. but there's just some reasons to them. stress with studies, projects and some other stuff.
been into anime again. recently am loving ranma 1/2 introduced by him.
anyway he has been hanging out at my house alot past few days too.
mood really sux. of cos there's happiness too. but the stress occupied most of my thinkings. too overwhelming. furthermore my imagination that led to sadness has been loitering in my brain recently.
i need to talk to someone.
I am bleeding inside.
3:49 AM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
i love mindguessing.
and i must admit.
i am a difficult person to be understood.
I am bleeding inside.
11:43 PM
i have so many untold dreams.. so many thoughts left unspoken.. i just wanna holler them all out.. but these strings of words just got caught in the midway.. this sucks. PUI!
I am bleeding inside.
2:13 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
finally i've updated on my blog. yay!
went gelare with him. hurhur. his idea
muahahaha.
yes. wore same shirt with him today.
BLEAHS!
and yups. we mega mms today. to upload our pics. wohoo.
POOR M1well. maybe not.
I am bleeding inside.
12:33 AM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!belated one. very. BLEAHS! was waiting for my photos to be uploaded into the com thats why.
here's whats whats on..
14 FEB 2005
went to school as usual.. duhx! before that some stuff happen lah.. but anyway.. hhmm.
oh well. i was late! argh! is not as if i wanna be late. i just happened to be late. arent surprising with me sleeping at 5pm yesterday for some stuff. gees. the worse thing was i was late for a PIPC TEST! thanks ah ms wang. for such a vday present.
school school school school. yada yada yada yada.fowardddddd.
me and my boy accompanied tat zhun buy his so belated vday prizzie. ok. are all guys like this? 
cause i also learnt that my boy havent buy for me yet. lols. but nvm. he 's forgiven only on that day of this year cause he injuired his ankle... ah well. no second time. 
tee-heee-hee *glares*
the process of buying was complicated. because the mall is mad-rushed with last min shoppers for a vday gift. 
tsK! and some pendant were out of stoccckkk!!!!! anyway settled at perlini's. i helped him chose a double or triple *actually i cant remember* heart necklace. nice ok?! $48/-
yes. we got free shots at perlini's. tz took alone. me n my boy one pic.
hurhur. two person now. just me and him. lols. anyway initially wanted to take neoprints first but goodness me. damn crowded.! so decided to eat. went ajisen.
actually we took quite some time to settle down for ajisen.
"where shall we eat?"<--- i said.
"you decide!"<--- his speech.
"why me?! alright. i give you choices. ajisen, fish & co, cafe cartel, breeks?"
"fish & co i have eaten before. cafe cartel & breeks roughly how much ah??"
"think breeks too ex. cafecartel later we go see?"
ok. end up we never check out cafecartel.anyway.
"let's go ajisen.. since you've said it until it sounded so nice.."
anyway thats when we settled for ajisen. sorta. hmm. no queues. ah yes. saw yen hwa ryan they allll.
i snapped a pic of him. *giggles*
my side dish. mixed fried dumplings! there's cheese prawn dumpling! wanted to take the softshell crab lorr. but he took it away! bleahs!
our sidedishes. and drinks. hur.
and example of a ramen.
i ordered seafood spicy ramen. his? miso charsiewwatched The Constantine.. good movie. yups. anyway we had earlier on booked our tickets at the axs machine its damn crowded with couples. and maybe friends too. but believe me. more of a guy girl holding hands.
went to fish for my prizzie. no comments were given to him cos i wanted him to choose by himself. hee. he bought me a pair of earrings with sparkling stones from PErlini's too. nice~ initially tz wanted to get for his gf that. but he settled for the necklace instead. lols.we took neoprints. hee. and yesh. i made a grave mistake. cos i didnt choose the ones we decorated. sad! but ah well. not gonna let it affect our mood. *cheer up cheer up*
he sent me home. we exchanged presents at our favourite spot.. anyway he surprised me with a card. was kinda v happy. cos his card i can see there's improvement. plus i didnt know he made for me a card. hur.THANKS bOY! *muacks*
somehow this vday left a nice effect on me.. i dont know why. it felt so comfortable.. and hopefully he enjoyed this vday as much as i do.. =P yet its his first vday. hurhur. ok.. i will take it as my first too.. since its a very different feeling.. really. 
TTHANKs BBOY! LOVE YOU!
I am bleeding inside.
11:59 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
its still cny. so let this 15 days of blogging be red kies? ang gong gong =X hokkien btw hurr. may these few entries colourblind-ed all of youuu! *evil chuckles*
today.. err. more like yesterday since its 13 feb now..okies firstly...ME AND YAO WEI 4THMONTH!! 12 FEB 2005. alright. 4 months only.. still got a longgg way to go.. but of cos i am happy. =P
went out with yl.. together with him and my papa. =P go bugis to buy mei tong's present.
bought a pair of earrings.. a hangbag.. a photoframe.
shared by me, yl, cassie and guan kai
hurhur. ate mos burger btw. my boy newbie there. =P
yay! he treated my breadpapa too.
thankew! *muacks*mama go visiting after that. boy came my house bai nian. had our dinner at our VIP resturaunt. BLEAHS.
i've matured with you..
learning as we glide along these past 4 months.
and, throughout the journey..
there's those fond memories that i will always smile to..
and the future thats waiting for us to step onto,
together.. hand in hand..
I am bleeding inside.
1:56 AM
hmm. been some time since i have last updated. anyway... heres my DAY 1 to DAY 3 happenings`!
DAY 1yes. taking advantage of m1's free mms service, me and boy mega send mms to each other about our whereabouts. *chuckles*
visited my mama's mama.. my grandma!
had vegeterian steamboat. hmm. hey. dont think yucksss.. its nice okies? i mean its not only we can boil/cook/grill meat.. veggies can be dipped in hot water and be cooked too! especially mushrooms! *grins*
the vegeterian abalone was great too.
why vegeterian? actuallly i would prefer a steamboat thats vegeterian but of cos must have prawns. (ehh. so its not vegeterian now yeah?) but cos one of my uncle my mama's elder brother their whole family eat greens only.. so no choice. oww. poor granny. living with them. and oh goodness.. she loves seafood... but ahh. not choice.
next stop my papa's mama.. hmm. boring. opps. alot of smokers. YUCKS! oh well. and kinda lotsa strangers?
went to my dad's aunt's (not blood-related relative.. my grandma's adopted) house. fell asleep on the sofa. was watching the kids play playstation but... yawnyawn.. daMN Paiseh! cos when i woke up i saw quite a number of strangers. around my age somemore. and were guys. =.=||| the girls were all primary school sorta peeps.
hurhur. yummy. the cny goodies. oh no... my waistline increasing! i can see it happening... ahHH!!!!!!
DAY 25th aunt (mummy's side) came visiting. my 4th aunt and her family away in korea... (AHH. WON BIN!)
hurhur. my lao gong! okies. just divorced. maybe. =X cos of my boy laaaahh. =x lalala together.. me n my family together with my 5th aunt and her family.. (my mum is the 3rd btw) went to my 2nd aunt's house(ah yes. my godmama).. hurhur. then together we go to out 1st aunt's house.
hurr. after that visit my boy's mama to bai niannn. she treated me pizza.YUMMS.
THANKs AUNTY!oww. school. dots. went school for a pathetic 2 hours. yawnyawn. went to my boy's place after that. watched vcd. heee.ahh. shall put up my day one to two clothings kies? day 3 the top was new but bottom wasnt. and i didnt took... and yes. day 4 too. i have the pics. hurr.
I am bleeding inside.
1:02 AM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
XING NIAN KUAI LE! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRRrr!
uh-huh. hellooo cocky year. hope it wont be sooo cocky. 
may it be a great year for me, my boy and my friends....
went back bedok view secondary.. met up with claudine first. on the way to school to meet claud, i saw joel.. hurhur. longgg time nv see him. however. he wasnt going to bv. he was going towards the mrt station. ah well. not much change. thought could see the lens-wearing him but he didnt wore them today. 
haha.
was finding miss peh when we saw heong han and his few of his brothers from his brotherhood..
initially was meeting him to go back to school together but luckily, i have got
no school. okies. actually there's school in the morning but... i have decided not to go cause i have decided not to go.
ah well. we forced heong han to go with us to find
Miss Peh.. and yes. he followed us after that
willingly.
yes. we only talked to miss peh. biased ah? wanted to find miss tan but hmm. god tells us not to find her. cause we couldnt find her.
ah. croaks, thanks for the free trip to tm! very reasonable le lorrr. for me and claud's combination of entertainment. anyway really enjoyed disturbing him. so funny.
ahh. still remembered those times in class during sec3. he was sandwiched by the both of us. muahahaha. and yes. i remembered me and claud enjoy drawing him *yups. his hands and his chair*, beating him, pinching him, torturing him. hurhur. claud even more power... biting him! actually he from sec 1 sorta get bullied *ok. put in a nicer word. entertained* by me already. sec 1 me and yuet ling combination force.. cos he was beside me? or was it yuet ling? sec 2 too but not that much cos he sat at another end..poor him. but maybe cos he is a very good friend thats why he is that easygoing..
ah. kinda missed sec school days... can fool around and not caring about our image. but anyway, am glad about one point in my poly life where i can meet my special one... and of cos my poly friends were also kinda funny. 
went to walk around with claud in tm before meeting my boy at pasir ris.
while waiting for my boy, i saw my bao bei nu er MING QUAN.. otherwise known as mei qi.. haha. used to be la.. sec 2. ahHH! he changed. sorta. from a hugable cuddy bear he became a fit tanned guy.. charming. resembles me. ah well. he is enlisted in army btw.. was going home for cny.
went to eat with my boyyy.. ahh. almost all of the shops are closed... we slacked at the library for quite some time before heading home. went there cos we wanna collect our comic book inuyasha.. v
had my family reunion dinner at my grandma house.. argh. dont really like going there cos HER HOUSE IS GOD DAMN IRRITATINGLY FREAKING DIRTY!
but the food were nice. cos its cooked by my daddy and mummy. hurhur. had steamboat toooo. abalone vs prawns? prawns, won. i also dont know why. kept eating them. but wows. had those muahahaha spread of food. yumyum. *fat!*
went to meet yl and plyn after that.. at yl's house playground. on the way i had a great time mmsing my boy~ very funny... was like tking photos where were we and sending to each other. hurhur.
had those heart-to-heart talk.. subject varies... choon tat came after that.. had some chat too.. home sweet home.
I am bleeding inside.
3:24 AM
Monday, February 07, 2005
love.
irresistible act.
secrets disclosed.
remorse?
perhaps not..
only when eternal sparkled.
anticipated.
I am bleeding inside.
11:24 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
ah. was a lil lazyy yesterday so didnt update. oh well. yesterday was kinda a packed day.. shalll blog together along with this alright? cause today contradict to yesterday so it means today nothing much happen. and thus able to squeeze in? so let's make this a long entry *combination of 2 days* ah well. this entry will be more focus on yesterday. hiaks.
was surfing webby yesterday when i saw this. cute horr! omg. sheep leh! sooo fluffy!!!*cuddlecuddle*
TODAY ah well. AH CHOOOOOOOOOOOO*sniff* flu. damn those spring cleaning. but rather satisfied seeing the neatness of my wardrobe. and yes. my drawers too. did a lil of shifting. hurr. am in the process of painting my nails. half doneee....! snores. did some supermarket shopping with family tOoOo~
YESTERDAY morning: wakey..! initially gonna bake with mango.. but cos of my oven we decided to go on a shopping trippp! wohooOooo. shopping never fails to wake me up. thats the remendy to every girls' <--*almost all* [[happiness]]. especially when its paid for. hurhurr. THANKS DADDY!
aww. went bugis. argh. hate the crowds. ah well. with all the squeezing and squaazing.. oh well. anyway. Its ok. hmm. grab a almond milk bread from CRYSTAL JADE for lunch. yummy. really wanted to eat the chocolate fondant lo.. but control! argh. WHY AM I FAT?!
bought some stuffs. and yes. i managed to buy my bottom. very cheap lo. the three quarter.. as compared to my 2% $56/- one larr. $29.90 nia. yet so nice lor. love ittt.
and ya. the dolly shoes. hurhur. $36 hurhur. happy! 
very satisfied lor. VERY
yl also bought the cardigan i bought on friday. hurhur.
we bumped into yl's boy and his friends.
was walking about when we saw this manicure service. DESIGNER NAILS had my pedicure done there. xpress one somemore. and its already $20 whoosh. cos of festive price. not good leh there. its like i duno. its normal? but iya. alright i guess. but its too simple that i can do it by myself. am just lazy. yl mum also do along with us. she met us after our shopping. she did the manicure whileas the both of us do the pedicure.
went to meet my boy after this. parted with yl and her mum. saw hh and his friends on the way home.
back at simei, east point. lol. accompanied boy to buy his stuff. had KFC. yumyum. its been sometime since i've last eaten there. hurhur.
he went to my house after that. we were being silly by acting as djs and playing with yang's mp3 player. cos he got those recording system ma. had some good laughs. guess my family must have been wondering whats with those laughters. anyway he sent to me those we recorded. hurhur. was a lil hyper at that time i guess.
this entry is kinda like a report of my day. *yawns* just wanna keep this entry simple. anyway just to keep them as memory. 
ahh. my poor boy sprained his ankle.. AGAIN. may he recover aasap.... 
I am bleeding inside.
11:41 PM
very much wanted.. no secrets held. wont that be perfect? can it be read up instead? so no more rounds of guessing..
I am bleeding inside.
1:26 AM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
yes. gonna make my this blog a sunshined one. with its glaring shine. yellowed and oranged. wanna be the carefree me again. and kick my sensitivity. PUI!
my smiless.
=|
alright. just wanna comment on my joy! i passed my PIPC! ah well. big deal for many of you peeps. but to me its a miracle! *jumps anyway thought i will fail and i got 32/50 hurr. but sadly i failed the most unexpected subeject: BnF
GROWLS.
fear not. for i guess. perhaps perhaps i will pass the main one. anyway i got 24/50 mahh. and its my fave.. i will pass!!!!
so far so good la. am doing sorta alright. hopefully no sup papers for me!!!
went bugis. initially was to go shopping for my boy's clothes. however he is too lazy. he prefers to remain a
ok.. he dont look like that now.. but still. MUAHAHAHAHA wanna ruinnn his image. *evil chuckles*
bad gf ah.? hur.
end up i am the one who do my shopping. alright la. initially i also wannted to shop. FOND OF SHOPPING! SHOPPING MY HOBBY. especially when its fully subsidised. courtesy of my papa
bought a cardigan. black with RIBBONS! hurhurhur. $22.90 to go along with my tubbbe dresss.
saw quite a number of ppl today. right here at bugis. 
yao wei's friend. some ppl from tp as. plyn. nic. sarah. her bf. TAT ZHUN! and his GF! lol. yun ai *working somewhere in bugis streett mahh*. and my sec 1 classmate edmund. lols. and his friend from bv.
cute lo. my boy a lil bored. I UNDERSTAND! BAH! and ah. when we saw tat zhun. his looks make me laugh. so like any typical guy who dont usually enjoysss shopping like YAO WEI. so cute. maybe i shall write an article about guys and shopping
muahaha. and yes. kept bumping into tz and his gf. and me and my boy did some stupidstuff. had a challenge of spotting the couple
went back to simeiii. eat at our VIP FASTFOOD RESTURANT BK lols.
simple entry. simple me. ta-da. sleeping soon... yesss. *yAWNSs*
and thankew ChARLEne & auGUSt!! for the postcard for cny cum vday. BLEAH!
I am bleeding inside.
1:27 AM
Friday, February 04, 2005
I LOVE YOU
I am bleeding inside.
2:10 AM
i am so scared...
I am bleeding inside.
1:01 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
i've learnt many things from the previous incident.
i've learnt about the rights and equality of both men and women.
truth were forseen.
its the pain that i might not be able to take it.
for the heart just ache like nobody's business.
perhaps.
its hard to accept it.
maybe initially.
but i am at my wits' end.
as some guys think differently now.
maybe i should try to adapt to such changes.
cos thats the only way.
the only path.
that will lead to the path i beamed on.
sob. this sucks. =~~~
I am bleeding inside.
10:32 PM
everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings... i feel so small.
I am bleeding inside.
4:18 AM
i cant sleep. i am not tired. i just need to hear those words from you.........
I am bleeding inside.
3:27 AM
today's a damn fcuked up day. mind my crude word that you've just seen really am seriously a sad. heartbreaking. gloomy. blue day. 
all because of the darn m1 service. and our assumption.
really dont wish to talk about it. i've done things that i've always been doing. and thought its girl's policy to do that. the attitude and all. or is it just me? maybe too used to it. and i've done things that i've never done before. really never. cos my pride is too strong. it is still strong. but i've done something which i dont know am i supposed to be doing nots. and i've teared openly. i can still feel the cracks. pricking me at the same time. nevertheless the heart, parts have been chipped off. i swore i heard its shatters. perhaps it might be just my hallucination. sorry but it still haunts me.
i dont know why. i dont know what. its like i felt dumped. i finally had a taste of the medicine. maybe its retribution? i dont know why i still clinged on. usually i dont. but what has gotten into me? maybe the spell is too deep. and it is making me do stupid stuff.
why is this happening? i dont know. from a small little thing.. due to plenty of misunderstanding.. and unwillingness to give in. and this just happen. it just happened.. just like that. it kept me thinking. why did we hurt ourselves in the first place? if only one of us just speak out. well. its all late.
sorta ok now? hopefully. maybe. and i will try. but i hate the coldness you splashed on me just now. really. i hate it. i feel so weak and helpless. i swore i will never forgive u.. but i did. forget? its a lil hard. but its me. my fault. I CAUSED IT! I CAUSED THIS DISPUTE! i m sorry... its my fault... why am i making it sound as if its your fault? but its not. really. its me. and the m1's fault. but i only hate it cause of you left me just like that. i was longing for those coaxing. guess i am still behaving like a child. too pampered perhaps? and i have those dumb thoughts. but what matter most now is everything is sort of ok.. well. maybe.
had my hair done again. he accompanied me anyway. didnt get the trims but she helped me style. oh well. it doesnt appeals to me. i have been drenched. so it doesnt matters to me.
my heart still feels so heavy................ 
I am bleeding inside.
2:27 AM
and i dont know why from a minor thing could turn out like this.
that hurts me so much.
initially its all my fault.
and yes it still is.
but there's something that really tears things apart.
and kept me thinking.
alot.
I am bleeding inside.
2:01 AM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
someone complimented on my hair. oh well. weird taste. anyway a lil happy about it. but now am very sad. very very. until i dont know myself anymore. maybe shall update later. with more details. maybe sniff
i wanna be strong.
and never care much.
at least i wont teared.
but it seemed so long ago.
where to find my oold missing soul.
dont know what to do.
dont know why i am doing this.
i dont know dont know dont know.
stab me please.
straight into my heartt.
have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry..
I am bleeding inside.
10:33 PM
good news or bad new first? my personal preferance.. bad news. cause after the rainstorm had overcasted upon me, the sun will shine. its like sunshine after the rain yeah? at least after hearing the bad news.. my good news that come rolling in afterwards will conceal the bad news.. well, maybe not completely. at least a lil?
uh-oh. bad news. my hair didnt have positive response. but my boy tried to cover up my sadness i guess? by saying its ok. oh well. i resort to fate.. i understood completely that it arent good. labelled as big head.. cos of the puffyness of the hair. oww. guess my mum was right afterall? or maybe its just the way i style. anyway going back tomorrow.. lily, my hairstylist gonna help me take a look. oh god. anyway gotta retrieve back my earrings that i've left there.
i hate having bad hair! its sux completely. imagine carrying the yucky hair around with you for like few months.. ow. blardy shit! i dont care about being a chuuu nu. let me reveal my realself ok? giggles. believe me. am in a bad mood.. cos of that. argh!
secondly. got back my food chemistry results. oh well. pass lahhh. jUST need me enlarge the font? JUST.. ok. think positive. at least i didnt fail. whats with my thoughts about scoring when i am struggling? oh well. thoughts diminished.
not trying to hao lian lahh. the good news is......... my maths results! 44/50 wooohoo. highest in class. ask me how i know. i peeped at the results of the whole class oh well. maybe cos i am repeating the subject. ah. nothing to be proud of anyway. but am damn glad. just wanna share my joy. at least let me have this few moments of happiness kies? 
YAY! ok. maybe thats a HUGE reaction. but call me brainless cos never ever had i in my poly life ah well. its only yr 1 sem 2 had i have such an achievement. hurrr.
ah yes. went to school opposite and had our lunch. nothing much actually. i just wanna emphasize and cry our my sufferings on the way there and back to school. COCKROACHES goodness me.
its like big flying or crawling millions or maybe trillions never say die cockroaches infesting the floor along the path towards the kopitiam.. AHH! they sprayed those haha-go-and-die-pests insecticides. and goodness me. many many crawled out.. from the drain and yes! they are those that never say die.. still struggling like mad.
whats with them anyway? some are even headless. and yes. its not brown cockroaches. some are a lil red. eews. why am i stepping on the same ground as them? cockroaches. why cant they extinct?
they infested the floor with their dirt. and they waste the spaces for movements. i am practically jumping and running with my eyes glueed to the ground! . believe me. its not just some puny few cockroaches. there are quite a number! ignore my previous estimation of billions and whateverllions. its just that errr. its seemed alot. maybe cos of the fright they gave me?
come to think of that. cockroaches are inddeeed very powerful creatures. well. sort of. its like such a tiny sized monster could scare us humans who are much bigger in size OFF! how could that be possible?! usually bullies are illustrated as mighty huge and powerful. but cockroaches? haha. just them moving crawling even struggling with their movements... need to mention flying? can scare us off! imagine them being bigger in size. like of our size. wont that be... think we will die of heartattack for those with faint heart.
ah. just got this bad feelings that cockraoches will invade the world one day. well. maybe. if there's too much to be destroyed. oh. poor us. tsktsk. *shakes head in dismay*
rather tired. ah yes. a lil glad i didnt join the tp pagent. damn embarrassing. imagine going around schools to parade. stand there let people stare at you like some endangered animals. and let people vote for u. anyway its a cheaT! if you have more friends. confirm got more lobang. anyway i am crowd shy. so really am glad... hurrr. they are being voted this whole week. heard some are really cute.. the guys and girls. ah well. confirm feel inferior with them anyway.
ah. thats all i guess. sorry for the idiotic part on cockroaches. shivers
I am bleeding inside.
1:44 AM
dejected joy.
plastered smiles.
fallible me.
fictitious hopes.
struggled through.
beaming wishes.
venturesome move.
adored love.
tidal days.
hopeful dreams.
touch of reality.
lingers on...
alright. my literacy skills sux alright? a lil no link. but just hmm. bear with it? =D
I am bleeding inside.
1:08 AM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
and yes. i miss my old rebonded boring hairstyle. it may have been sticking with me for quite some time.. i rather have my old boring hairstyle back. cos i sucks at styling and damn my natural curled hair. *growls* and i rather have it boreddd me to death than have one thats different and weird?
grow hair grow! GROWWW!!
I am bleeding inside.
9:55 PM
practically dragged myself out of bed today. had lab at 9am.. ah well. and reached at about 9.30am. yes. 9.30am and ya. i didnt panicked at all. see from my actions yeah? 8.50am still at my house lift lobby. do you think i care? uh-uh.. too lazy. seriously in holiday mood.. its not enough alright? ohwell. guess i am getting more and more lazy. its the bug thats attacking me again.
ah well. speaking of bugs. the mosquitoes are haunting me. its invading my territory. I NEED SPACE! BUZZ OF MOSSSIII! ahhh. killed two already. yesh. already and its still.. disturbing my privacy. ah well. the mosquitoes are gonna rule the world sooner or later. eeews. imagine that. perhaps they have too many eggs.
back to the original topic. seriously today's a madrush. everything seemed so sureal. more like errr. ok. seemed wrong though it doesnt exactly sux. ah well. was late for school. had to rush the damn bloody project. and yes. unexpectedly there's BnF lab today! argh. why arent me and my friends that i go along with informed?! we didnt know. its like while we were buying food..
"xxx xxxx called! the class are all in lab now! there's BnF tutorial today"
i was like seriously. WHAT THE HELL. furthermore my stomach was growling. *roars*. i was in the midst of queueing for my oh-so-fantastic malay rice with my boy when yen hwa came to inform us of the call. tat zhun already was seated comfortably with his plate of chinese rice back at our table. i was like... argh. dont care. we eat first. and yes. i dont care. i dont mind a warning letter. it seemed so close to me anyway. whats a semester without a warning letter grinning at me? anyway one doesnt huurt ya? hmm. maybe i will have the honour to get one one day on a more worth-it day. we were 1/2 hour late. who caressss!
alright lah. its sux even more when we gotta rush to complete our tutorial. didnt know why i am so darn slow with it. and yes. i had those urge to go to the toilet but am to lazy to go during this rush. ha. was a lil hyper in lab today. goodness know why. ask my boy. he suffered enjoyed my high period of time. of my tipsy-ness.*chuckles*
fastt fwd. meet up with mango after that. THANKS MAMA!!! she accompanied me for my haircut. oh yea. by concidence, claudine smsed me about gift exchanging. it was like her msg was
darling! wanna exchange presents on vday?
initially i seriously thought it was meant for her the other half. oh well. but since i am smart. i knew that how could it possibly that she will msg her bf that?! ah well. i thought she didnt tell me when she is attached. was hurt. but well. i managed to get cheery again when her darling was meant me. hurhur. she smsed some other peeps too. oh well. its not why she has no vday dates or whatsover. just that my this friend she has high taste on lo. must be picky ma anyway.
alright. back to where i have sorta stopped. its like i replied her upon seeing the msg... and yes! just an instance saw her at the mrt control station! ahh. lols. exchanged teddy hug. missed her. she was with her classmate anyway.
ah. had my cut by this hairstylist Lily.. very patient and kinda friendly. my hairstlye was like i am quite satisfied lo. mango said looks the same only the difference in parting. but sadly when i got home. my mum and sisters insulted my hairstyle saying how horrible it was... argh. was very grumpy. anyway cant wait for tml for more comments. oh well. negative i will just take it lo. just dont further rub salt into my wounds by continuously insult my hair when i say STOP.. thats the problem with my mum. i kept saying stop it and here she goes.. blabbering all the way. jaws cant stop moving. argh! my heart a lil pain anyway. $33.05 and no compliments so far. its after discount already alright?! initially was $37.something.
ate tako pachi. hurr. yummy. had octopus. exchanged the prawn with mango. i ate a damn sinful food. CHOCOLATE FONDANT ah. what a sinful dinner. but i simply cant resist the temptation. whats takak food court without delicious desserts like the one thats currenly undergoing the process of disgestion in my tummy now. oh well. adding the extra meat to my hips and argh. legs? maybe my flabby arms too. but i cant help it!!!
walked around taka to buy some stuff. ah well. didnt complete our purchases of stuff anyway. oh well.
kinda tired. what a long and stupid post. oh well. spare me. i just love typing rubbish on my keyboard. FURIOUSLY. despite the fact that my eye lids are closing. oh well. hurr.
I am bleeding inside.
1:30 AM
