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Thursday, December 22, 2005

i dont quite understand myself.
constantly i really wonder why am i doing all these.
is it worth it?

i feel that either its really..
the smile arent there anymore when i do those silly things.
or its just that i started noticing the flaws.
its just sometimes i do see them.
the patience no longer there.
whatever i say, joked or what, i am being treated like a fool.
i cant understand why some things other people do can just make it look so funny and being laughed at.. instead of being labelled as "this is irritating!"

i really flare up whenever i noticed them.
but that makes me wrong.
i am the criminal, no?

i remembered how i am being treated differently.
very much different.
not with the status, being the reason.
its like its just suddenly. even like few months back?
i totally hate this.
its like things changed, completely.

i dont know why i have this tolerance.
i can simply just walk off like this.
its like what do i benefit from all these?

when the tears just flowed freely,
theres no longer this embrace.

i wished i m brave enough to walk away just like that..........
i need warmth.. :(

I am bleeding inside.
12:15 AM