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Monday, January 31, 2005

went shoopping with my boy today. haha. wwas a rather reluctant trip for him i supposed? cos he isnt really fond of shopping. oh well. he wanted to sorta change his image i supposed. so its like the decision was made up for him.. already? he had no choice but to go shopping for his cny clothes. if not giodarno shirts gonna be grinning at him.

ah well. bought a top from zoom.. $26.90and another from dont know what shop. $35 after discount. its a BLACK top. with hot pink. a lil though. hmm. rather satisfied with my spree today. hur.

and yes. tml gonna shop againn...! with mango. hoho. *jumps about* i am sooo in love with shopping. anyway gonna get a new haircut at wisma atria isetan: icon. by shunji matsuo hopefully is nice? *prays*
and yes. i believe there's retribution.. or more like everything has a price to pay. haha. ask me and my boy. on what happened at pasta mania today. oh well. anyway, i am a lil generous today. so i dont feel so.. errr. pinched? but i felt bad for my boy.. cos i thought.. oh well. shouldnt mention about our cheapo behaviour here. its far too.. a lil kiasu-everything-free-also-wan-aunty sort of conduct. too ashamed. hmm. at least i know whats a PAISEH.

and yes. got very irritated today. the last min rush of our very so exciting project. and my nose is acting up again. *ahhh choo!* and yeah. someone.. hopefully not of someone close to me gave an anoymous peep my msn addy. argh. actually that no-name added me quite sometime back but well. today he finally managed to catch me online. to think that i ponder over whether is it someone i knew or maybe not as gutless and yes. our first day of conversation he pissed me off. hard. period. condemned. period. alright. maybe i am not unfriendly. but please la. is like dont be such a sucker. a *ttoooot*. and dont think too highly of yourself!!!! actually this part is dedicated to him cos i guess he might have the chance to stumble upon my blog cos its printed clearly on my nick. ah well. tag my board pls and surrender if you DARE

ah well. sometimes i just wonder why do humans have feelings. is like why do people fall in love? if the love continues.. it will be great. who loves breakups anyway if you are serious about your another half. is like wont it be nice if you could spend your life with the love of your life forever? the one you gave your heart most into and have him with you so that all these efforts arent go to waste? thats why, i never like putting in effort into a relationship. as in like put the entire feelings into it. i rather be an idiot just playing the love by its rule and even when its game over, i can start all over again easily.. throwing the dice and simply move the steps accordingly without fuss. but well. kyao sorta got me trapped into such a situation. yes. if its eternal love i think in years to come, there wont be regrets. its a battle that i wanna fight on without surrendering. i really find it sweet if those couples.. evven when toothless they still dare smile sweetly at each other, revealing their gums.. holding hands in hands.. and yes. either bald or the whitehair. doesnt matter yeah? its like how come they can keep their love going on and on while some couples barely gave each other a glance. so is there still a need for me to say shower with love? some merely ignore each other's presence. hurting yeah? sometimes.. over the longg years of relationship.. if given up you will swear you will never love again. i believe in it. cause maybe the faith of love will never be there again. ah well. if only humans are like non-living things? ahhh.. really hate the complexity of humans. ah well. anyway i am not depress or whatsover. i am in fact feeling xing fu cos my kyao is a great boyfriend though he can be an idiot from time to time. still. he will sometimes never fail to make me melt time to time. well. sometimes. you will ask me why am i blabbering over such an issue. well. had a chat with a friend about it so well... just wanna throw all my thoughts out.

I am bleeding inside.
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