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since i am kinda BORED.. might as well make this entry CoLouRfuL..
damn BORED..
managed to only touch on the 
seriously there's these thoughts that kept appearing on my mind. why do people fall in love.. and yes. out of love.. sometimes i dont feel like risking my feelings into such things.. but it just.. oh well. happen? having your partner by your side can bring joy.. as well as sadness.. which is very disheartened.
the first stage when a relationship starts, tends to make your heart race whenever you see that special somebody. you will be on cloud 9.. you will feel that you are drowned in a world of just the both of you. nobody but only two. you will always wanna to meet that special somebody whenever you're free.
second stage is where disputes may pour in. its trust and understanding to keep it going on. you will tend to give in because the relationship is still fresh and you havent gotten enough of it. more like you havent gotten sick? but for true love.. i guess.. its cos you love that somebody too much that you will be willing to lose your pride and make the other happy. by all means you will wanna mend and cover up the cracks left behind by the conflict. oh well. the second stage i guess the love arent that deep yet though. anyway personally i feel that quarrels sometimes can bond both partys' relationship stronger if only they are frank with each other. its hard. VERY. cos even though for me.. till now.. i have been struggling to say how i really feel. i tend to bottle up my feelings again. over and over again. i think its better to give in cos i am afraid what truth might bring me to. yes. i know the truth is one that solve everything if you are mature enough. but well.. i learnt to accept and yah. forgive and forget. its better not to know the truth yeah?
the third stage.. the interest might not be that strong anymore.. to some people. some will be loving each other more than before. most... cant. people started to divert their interest on other ppl.. and drifted away from it. i call this relationship an infatuation. its just a childplay. come on. if feelings were that easily gone....... it isnt love. if both party can make one another feel the importance of themselves... less likely anything bad will happen. its the effort that keeps it going. and yes. the care and concern. and never neglect your special someone. i have never exprienced true love. but hopefully my present one will not be just another infatuation. i know to me not.. but its still too early to say. yes. i have sailed past those relationships where they treated you superb nice.. but sadly.. no response was given back to them. those days were more carefree because i dont care. is it better? to a certain extent i guess? because at least if it fails it wont hurt that much. only missing the concern that those people showered on me.
awww. i dont know why i start to blabber all this. its draggs my mood down.........
i have seen many broken relationships.. sometimes its sick.
the longer you are in a relationship... the more you will depend on that person. i think thats what most old married couples feel?
anyway.. i am gonna treasure what i have now.. and hopefully making it last... because this is the first time i've risked my feelings into it.. but still.........oh well. 
its late now. i cant sleep though i just gotten his call.... argh. swinggg swinggg......
I am bleeding inside.
1:53 AM