IMAGE IS LOADING, PLS BE PATIENT.
Monday, January 24, 2005
i just read his blog. about regrets. oh well. about how we chose our path and stuff like that.
seriously i also constantly wonder.. what will happen if i did not fool around and play in sec 3 and worked hard? life could be different. at least its not like till the end of sec 4 seeing my prelims results that i woke up to reality and started striving for good results.. which is a lil too late ya? i do not have a strong foundation! at least i think i might have enter to a jc.. even SRJC i wont mind.
entering to a JC could means another kind of lifestyle for me. different people too. and even how hectic jc life can be.. i think i might enjoy jc's life better then poly. oh well. at least i guess jc are more of like a secondary school life. and yes. most importantly: the direct route to university.
entering to a university matters to me alot. but guess i have to give up hope unless overseas? but imagine leaving you loved ones behind for years.. ow man.
and yes. i guess jc the friendship bonds will be stronger. i prefer this kind of life and friends. even though in poly, the friends are not bad.. but guess jc i will get to meet more people? as in like closer friends. imagine everyone crammed together to mug for the coming major examinations.. yes. alevels. i like that kind of atmosphere. and yes. staying in the same class and i guess cca will be part of my life too.. if i am in jc.
its not like i hate my current life. i do appreciate the happy moments i had in poly. like being able to meet him and some of my fun friends. but i cant help wondering what will life be for me if i am in a jc. at least i guess i will be too busy to think of rubbish....
ok.. now i will try get back to my studies...
so much for my two 'depressing' entries. lols.
I am bleeding inside.
1:35 PM
