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IMAGE IS LOADING, PLS BE PATIENT.
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ow. planned to study. eh. end up studied a lil. =X
hmm. talked things out with my boy about certain stuff. felt happier. much much. at least my doubts were cleared. hmm. just gotta try accept his WEIRD IDIOTIC character. (^^*,) lol. anyway like what moi mango mama said to me this afternoon.. guys are dumb. =)
okies. nothing much happen today. kinda bored though. argh. stuck at home. and its like a reverse. my sis is out with her friends. *jealous* why! why! why must i have this dumbo sup papers!!!
hee. saw claud bulletin post~ she miss me! =X actually i missed her too~ =D shit. my after-studying effect is horrible. i sounded so~ hmm. nvm~ good mood today~ =]
sounds like sunshine after the rain ah?
hmm. sorta reflect on pearly's action. dont know why. eh. eh. anyway to me la. i feel that pearly maybe didnt really have chance to explain. ya. true. they gave her chance. but she nv even speak up. eh. okies. maybe. but. eh. she felt that she has been accused? hmm. maybe? in her opinion la. eh. more like my thoughts on her opinion. =X ok. maybe i thought she thought she has been accused. even though i dont think so for the private party and stuff.. but still... its like she might have her own reasons. but still.. it hurts many ppl. of cos for me i will be deeply hurt too. anyway it somehow brought back to the incident i had with a good (used to be.. to me la) friend of mine. v sad. he simply sorta accused me all the way. with those hurting insensitive remarks. hey. i am a girl afterall. he's too direct. he simply shoot all the blunt remarks at me. i refused to fight back even though i had been accused. he didnt exactly let me have my say. initially i did tried to sorta explain. but the more i explain the more he find fault with every lil thing. so i end up keeping quiet. let him say everything lor~ thinking back it hurts alot. cos i treated him like a brother. anyway. its over. ok. back to pearly. i think right. she might be feeling hurt too. cos i read the conversation. most of the things that has been typed out to her are the word 'f**k'. cant blame them. if i were them i might do that too. maybe not that harsh. but hey. nobody likes to talk to someone who dont respond. hmm. guessed pearly are sorta ego sort *like me*. i remembered vividly that when my that friend accused me.. inside of me i am very very upset. all the while i am thinking why is he being so shallow. why didnt he let me explain clearly and try understand my situation. i wanted to fight back. but i thought just let him do what he wants. i wanted to type out what really actually happen. but.. duno. something inside me tells me to just let him talk and talk and me? just shut up. lols.
hais. anyway i seriously am sad.. more like felt a pity if these whole thing just go with the wind. i meant the pearly incident. i hope she will just speak up. clear the misunderstanding by herself instead of having ppl stood up for her and be her representative to speak out. but sadly guess she dont know my blog url to read what i've posted. but well.. wishing that my dearest friend will one day realised its a must to clear everything up.. before she goes abroad for her further studies.. at least the parting will be temporary cos we can always know that whenever she comes back for vacation, we will get to see her. and when she return.. hopefully our grpies bond is still there..
long entry. =P hmm. spare my grammetical mistakes. too lazy to read through and check.. *am always like that* =P anyway i am not sitting for an english examination, am i?
I am bleeding inside.
2:49 AM