sunday. stayed at home and muggggggg.. prepared baked pasta for moi two sisters. =] recieved positive comments from them. hoho. quite satisfied actually. but initially the first plate i fried was burnt. =X hoho. first time trying out ya? frying+baking of pasta. =D at night something happened. hmm. made me think of many stuff. many many. hais.

monday. wento to sch. only me and yao went for maths. after sch went to meet mango and her boiboi~ hee. she passed me some notes ya. hmm. and yao n her boiboi was laming throughout lo. lol. is like they are at the same frequency. zzz. sorta la. cos they can gay together. opps. i meant crap. eh. or maybe to be frank. is gay. =x walked all the way home with yao. haha. he! force me! =x =Pp hais. anyway, still. mayn many things are floating on my mind. hmm. ya. moi deary handphone has been discharged from the hospital! to moi relieve. moi pictures still all there! =D

hmm. tues. kel came over to talk about the incident. moi mood sorta pulled down. while waiting for kel to come over. i studied at starbucks. and ya. wrote down moi feelings. sorta.

^{*Felt so sucky. So down. SO helpless. Fear of reality. Of the truth. Of losing..Why is this revolving around my life? Arent up to the challenge, Dont wanna admit defeat, Yet not wanting to be selfish. Should i fight on, or back off...*}

ouch. anyway tears did rolled down from moi eyes. trying to be strong. really. felt veryvery down. was touched when mango actually did called me on her way to school using her hp knowing i need someone to talk to. she adviced me and stuff like that. felt a little better. at least my deepest thoughts are being revealed. hmm. after that called him~ to tell him how i felt about the kel incident. needa assurance ya? seriously i dont know why. somehow he managed to destroy moi ego. was sorta relieved by his positive feedback i've recieved from him. is the new ee ling better or the old? =Pp somehow i dont wanna regret.. and this incident really kept playing on my mind. i m not confused. or what. is like i am sure of my feelings. am clear of everything. i am just afraid of his thinking and everything.i am too afraid of changes. still. i accept the facts. but fortunately.. everthing turned out fine. but still. hope that i arent dreaming. and yet.. there's some thoughts that are left unspoken. =Pp. cant bring myself to do that. well.. at least most are said. =]

wed went to school for a while. thought that the lecture starte at 9 but was actually 8. v blur ya. yao confirmed wimme yest that was 8 and i kept assuming was 9. felt bad making him attend alone. =Pp but at least i did rushed down in moi daddy's car to pei him. hee. studied abit at long john after sch with him and tat zhun. needa pei him collect his specs. =x his specs alright la. better den the last. =x but makes his eyes looooked smaller. (^^*,) but okies la. ~~~ wanted to study with pearlyn and quek in the evening. she offered to couch me wimme maths. =D nice of her ya? hEe. but forgot to tell mum and she bought those stuff for dinner le. so ended up nv. hEe.

thursday which is todayy.. wore identical shirt with bonG~ =Pp felt paiseh initially but after that was alright. hee. saw another 'identical twin'. wearing green shirt. and the worse thing is they were sitting directly in front of both of us! upon seeing it.. i burst into laughter. and moi face was red~! i laughed really hardd... zzz. =~~~~~~D at night sorta sux. someone is spreading moi email of something like that. v irritated. v v v~ yet plus the stress i am suffering now.. it is really sucky. duno. i am feeling v moody agaiN~ if only someone can understand me................ cos i dont even know myself well... hAis..............